it's people like that who aren't mature
they are being hypocrites in a way.
Although there will come the time you meet that one person you'll never be able to get over.
the last ex of mine, will be too damn hard to get over.
i dont think i am over her, at times i think that i am, but in reality i am not.
just the thought of her still haunts me and well it kills me inside out.
it is our fault for feeling this way ,in this case my fault for feeling this way.
we need to be able to love ourselves first, put myself first.
i always put her first, on the pedestal.
with her only i am 'whole' that should not be how it works, we need to fill the void in our heart by our own somehow..
*sigh* oh well, hitting the gym has been the best thing for me personally, it helps me alot.
so i keep going and try to be consistent, if nothing goes right go lift haha.
and being in a relationship can be very stressful often times, there are times that i really miss /and times i really do not miss at all...
so much drama, so much bs and the list goes on.
and oh btw. cold showers help too, i take a medium hot shower first just to rinse my hair from cowashing (conditioning) and afterwards i just have (now winter) freezing cold water run down my body and it feels amazing.
helps me relax alot so i been taking my showers that way for over a month now, will make it a habit.
i stay under the cold for around 5 minutes only.
(if anyone tries this do not run it down your hair only Body and if you feel good then do it, but do not do it if your body starts shaking/you shiver etc. or if you feel uncomfortable and start to dance /or sing haha).
*sigh* alright too much talk -v-'