Sorry about the loss of your father. I know you're in great pain now, and that's normal, but it does get more bearable over time. The times I lost someone (most recently just a few months ago) were the hardest of my life, and I didn't feel like it would ever be anything but pain and sorrow, but over time, while you still feel the loss, you find a way to... i don't know the words... compartmentalize maybe... and while sometimes you'll still be very sad and in pain, for the most part you can get back to living life, and focus more on the good things you remember about the person's life. If you have friends and family to be around, who share your loss, I've found that to be of great help. Please don't do anything rash like taking your own life. Then nothing will ever get better. Not to mention the pain it would compound on your remaining loved ones. And all your friends at the Temp would miss you!
Best wishes and prayers for you and your family during these trying times.
Best wishes and prayers for you and your family during these trying times.