Foxi4, I understand everything that you are saying. People have been telling me for some time that it is time for me to move on. Many people have said that including my best friends. There were a couple more developments that happened with the ex in the past week that have gotten me to the point that I now see that chasing her is not doing me any good, it is just hurting me more. The stress of this has caused me to lose nearly 40 pounds and I need to find peace and acceptance so I can just move on. I was not looking for a new relationship, but instead just a friendship and this woman came in to my life and she is right for me.
My ex has hurt me too much and does not want me back, and I no longer care. As long as I can be a good father to my children and find happiness in my own life then I should go for it. I certainly am not going to rush it with this woman, but I need to be happy once again otherwise I am unable to function as a productive human being.
I have been put down and crapped on for too many years now and all it did was drag me down and make me feel like less than a person. Going back to my ex would not bring me happiness and I understand it now. I am thinking more clearly than I have in these past 2 months. Now someone has come in to my life that is making me feel good and gives me compliments instead of insults.
Believe me, I am doing the right thing for myself. I will not hurt this woman as long as I stay honest with her.