Hi tempers,
I have been thinking deeply about this inexplicable feeling I have been having time and again about gaming. I came here to see what others have to say, and if anyone can really help me out. This has been bothering me for far too long. Gonna try to keep the post as concise as possible. If it matters, I am a 21 male looking to go into medical school. Currently a Junior in undergrad.
I was really into gaming. When I had the time, I would play video games all day. I played the snes, n64, gba sp, gamecube, ps1, ps2, nes when I was a kid. For ~8 years, between the age of 10-18, I lived in a fairly poor country (where video simply did not exist) before moving to America (I was born in America and lived there up until I was 10. grew up with the classics like snes, n64, Gameboy etc). My father would work in America over the spring and summer and come back and stay with us for the fall and winter. Upon his every return, he would ask me what I wanted. One year I asked for a ds light with new super Mario bros as my only game. Another I asked for the Nintendo gamecube with a few games. Another I asked for a psp with megaman maverick hunter x as my only game.
The year I got my psp, I played maverick hunter x one level per day to try and saver the fun (same thing with Mario and the ds). It was the only game I had. One time, however, I spoke with my older brother who brought up hacking/modifying the psp. I dreamed of such things but never thought something like this was possible: to be able to play any snes, gba, gb, ps1, and psp game whenever I wanted as long as I had internet around? I did my research for about 3 weeks and finally modded the guy. For two years I played every psp, ps1, gba, snes game I always dreamed of playing. It was a dream come true. I would finish one game and move onto the next. My psp, which I still have under my bed, was where I had most of my fun.
Then, when kingdom hearts 358/2days came out for the ds, my dad bought my an R4. The cycle repeated itself. I played every ds game I ever wanted (the marios, the sonics, the pokemon games).
I'm now in America, studying to be a med student at a university. I bought a wii and a 3ds about 3 years ago together. Played skyward sword on the wii (pirated of course) and then let the console be. I played a few 3ds games like the Zelda games, 3d land, dream drop, new super Mario 2, and a few others (using a gateway 3ds card). I enjoyed the 3ds very much. I recently upgraded to a new 3ds, but I don't know why. I just have not had the chance to play it recently. I have absolutely no time to play games during the semester. I understand that. But where has my motive to play games gone?
In the past I would rush to do my hw as soon as I got home to play games. Now, if I finish hw early, which is rare, I prefer to just lay in bed and chill.
I just don't know where my motive is, at all. There are so many games I wanted to play like the bravely default series, pokemon sun and moon. I used to be a pokemon fanatic! I played and absolutely loved every single pokemon generation game. But when sun/moon came out, I was not excited at all. I was like meh, even though it looked really cool. I forced myself through x and y (enjoyed alpha sapphire though).
It's hard to explain. I don't know if I got hit with the piracy syndrome or what. I feel like there are so many games I wanted to play, but never got the chance to, so they piled up, didn't know where to being, and more games continue to come out that I want to play, and so I never get to them. Like, I'm on winter break right now, but haven't touched my 3ds because there is too wide a variety to play from and I do not want to rush playing through any games. I just lost motive.
The only game I am currently looking forward to is Kingdom hearts 3 for the ps4 (my favorite game hands down). It is the only game now that I can see myself playing. Although I enjoyed mario, pokemon, sonic, smash bros, Mario kart and many others very much, I just can't bring myself to be excited enough to play them anymore. It's weird. What is weirder is that I have a desire to purchase every console I ever played and every game I ever played and just have them on display for myself (I guess to help preserve the good memories? I'm broke though). I always had this desire to encompass a little aspect from every single game I ever played into a single poster or something viewable that I can always remember my gaming past by, but I don't know how to do that. I don't know why I want to do this either. Is it nostalgia perhaps? I just can't make this all out. I don't know how to explain these feelings.
TLDR:
- don't feel like playing video games anymore.
- still love seeing sequels and games moving forward, even though I don't play them.
- I think nostalgia is forcing me to find a way to encompass every gaming memory into some kind of physical sentiment.
- I feel left out of the gaming community; all these cool games come out. Everyone gets to play them while I don't get to (I don't feel like it).
Sorry for going on a rant. I wanted to put this out there for a while, but was embarrassed to. I highly value your input and what you have to say. Thanks for taking the time to read.
Edit: Grammar. Added TlDR
I have been thinking deeply about this inexplicable feeling I have been having time and again about gaming. I came here to see what others have to say, and if anyone can really help me out. This has been bothering me for far too long. Gonna try to keep the post as concise as possible. If it matters, I am a 21 male looking to go into medical school. Currently a Junior in undergrad.
I was really into gaming. When I had the time, I would play video games all day. I played the snes, n64, gba sp, gamecube, ps1, ps2, nes when I was a kid. For ~8 years, between the age of 10-18, I lived in a fairly poor country (where video simply did not exist) before moving to America (I was born in America and lived there up until I was 10. grew up with the classics like snes, n64, Gameboy etc). My father would work in America over the spring and summer and come back and stay with us for the fall and winter. Upon his every return, he would ask me what I wanted. One year I asked for a ds light with new super Mario bros as my only game. Another I asked for the Nintendo gamecube with a few games. Another I asked for a psp with megaman maverick hunter x as my only game.
The year I got my psp, I played maverick hunter x one level per day to try and saver the fun (same thing with Mario and the ds). It was the only game I had. One time, however, I spoke with my older brother who brought up hacking/modifying the psp. I dreamed of such things but never thought something like this was possible: to be able to play any snes, gba, gb, ps1, and psp game whenever I wanted as long as I had internet around? I did my research for about 3 weeks and finally modded the guy. For two years I played every psp, ps1, gba, snes game I always dreamed of playing. It was a dream come true. I would finish one game and move onto the next. My psp, which I still have under my bed, was where I had most of my fun.
Then, when kingdom hearts 358/2days came out for the ds, my dad bought my an R4. The cycle repeated itself. I played every ds game I ever wanted (the marios, the sonics, the pokemon games).
I'm now in America, studying to be a med student at a university. I bought a wii and a 3ds about 3 years ago together. Played skyward sword on the wii (pirated of course) and then let the console be. I played a few 3ds games like the Zelda games, 3d land, dream drop, new super Mario 2, and a few others (using a gateway 3ds card). I enjoyed the 3ds very much. I recently upgraded to a new 3ds, but I don't know why. I just have not had the chance to play it recently. I have absolutely no time to play games during the semester. I understand that. But where has my motive to play games gone?
In the past I would rush to do my hw as soon as I got home to play games. Now, if I finish hw early, which is rare, I prefer to just lay in bed and chill.
I just don't know where my motive is, at all. There are so many games I wanted to play like the bravely default series, pokemon sun and moon. I used to be a pokemon fanatic! I played and absolutely loved every single pokemon generation game. But when sun/moon came out, I was not excited at all. I was like meh, even though it looked really cool. I forced myself through x and y (enjoyed alpha sapphire though).
It's hard to explain. I don't know if I got hit with the piracy syndrome or what. I feel like there are so many games I wanted to play, but never got the chance to, so they piled up, didn't know where to being, and more games continue to come out that I want to play, and so I never get to them. Like, I'm on winter break right now, but haven't touched my 3ds because there is too wide a variety to play from and I do not want to rush playing through any games. I just lost motive.
The only game I am currently looking forward to is Kingdom hearts 3 for the ps4 (my favorite game hands down). It is the only game now that I can see myself playing. Although I enjoyed mario, pokemon, sonic, smash bros, Mario kart and many others very much, I just can't bring myself to be excited enough to play them anymore. It's weird. What is weirder is that I have a desire to purchase every console I ever played and every game I ever played and just have them on display for myself (I guess to help preserve the good memories? I'm broke though). I always had this desire to encompass a little aspect from every single game I ever played into a single poster or something viewable that I can always remember my gaming past by, but I don't know how to do that. I don't know why I want to do this either. Is it nostalgia perhaps? I just can't make this all out. I don't know how to explain these feelings.
TLDR:
- don't feel like playing video games anymore.
- still love seeing sequels and games moving forward, even though I don't play them.
- I think nostalgia is forcing me to find a way to encompass every gaming memory into some kind of physical sentiment.
- I feel left out of the gaming community; all these cool games come out. Everyone gets to play them while I don't get to (I don't feel like it).
Sorry for going on a rant. I wanted to put this out there for a while, but was embarrassed to. I highly value your input and what you have to say. Thanks for taking the time to read.
Edit: Grammar. Added TlDR
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