My girlfriend will probably dump me soon because I'm a pathetic excuse of a man. I knew that I wasn't worth having a girlfriend or someone to tell me I love you in the first place. I just wasted almost 2 years of her life because she could have easily found someone more attractive and richer than me.
I really think that since the day I asked her to be mine, she only said yes because she felt pity for me. Damn, like right now I don't even know what would have been better - if I didn't ask her or if she said no.
If there was actually more to it than just pity, I really don't know. I just don't understand why she would actually love me. When I asked her why she loved me she told me that it's because of how I treat her. Yea, I'm nice to her and can make her smile and laugh and we can talk all day about anything (for me this is impressive because I'm socially awkward as fuck. I can't really hold a conversation with anyone besides her for more than 30mins ).
But I really never really gave her nice gifts or take her on any romantic dates. The first actual gift I gave her and the most romantic thing I did was on her birthday, about 6 months into the relationship. To celebrate, she spent the day with me at my apartment. I had bought a nice birthday cake, gave her a better phone and a nice custom designed birthday card (I'm a graphic designer and to this day I think that card was the best artwork I've ever designed. I created versions for her new phone wallpaper, my WhatsApp pic, and facebook post) It was a really nice day and I just felt happy seeing her reaction to everything. When I did the surprise reveal her face looked so beautiful in awe under the candlelight.
The other romantic gift I gave her was on Valentines. It was a glass ornament with our names laser etched into it in a heart design. It looked really cute but Christmas was just a generic gift set.
Anyways, why I mentioned those was because I think that those two things might have been reasons why she didn't just dump me earlier.
If anyone actually read this far, why? Does my sob story entertain you? I started typing this to give the full story of my love life but I just realised a few things. It's going to be a very long story none of what I said above are the interesting parts - but I had to give a little back story before I explained what's currently going on. However, the most important thing that I realised is most of you will just read the title, see the body of text and ignore or maybe scroll for a TLDR.