I think its a PHOBIA...
Tbh i don't see whats the big deal and why people talk so much about it. If you're black or bi or whatever...i mean literally who cares..no one really should. I guess people can feel whatever they like.
I mean i can understand your grandma in a way and other people reacting, she (or others) has a natural reaction to a unnatural action. Don't get me wrong, but by the rules of nature man kissing a man is not a natures way of reproducing, its counter productive from natural pov, and having sex in the first place is because we are meant to reproduce and multiply, and that can only happen how nature told us. Humans have this wired in their brains i guess and everything that deviates from natural orders is considered alien. Now people reactions to that feeling vary, but the people that are horrible to others with the goal of hurting them ON PURPOSE (that's very important, because not everyone is like that) are actually acting like douche-bags. I mean you have two people thinking the same thing, but one acts in a bad way disrespecting the person, and other acts in completely opposite way.
I mean the person THINKING this logical and natural thing is not and should not be labeled homophobic
(even though phobia has nothing to do with this, i think its a missused word by lgbt comunity..i wouldnt use that word, cause phobias has nothing to do with this but for the sake of argument let it be)
To be perfectly honest here, LGBT people ARE minority and will always be, its not some conspiracy its just natural order of things.
Now if we talk about the actual person and not labeling it as LGBT or whatever, thats a whole different story, we are all the same inside, and i think thats what should be pointed more often and not the differences.
I see LGBT poeple pushing to hard that they naturally get negative response and than they feel depressed or angry. I get they feel forced to hide, but boung full power is also not the solution. I mean living a normal life is quite enough, people should accept homosexuality in their own way and not to be pushed.
These days i feel similar to how LGBT people feel, i feel like someone is pushing me to acept that, and thats OK, if LGBT are not represented by lunatics that are literally not right in a head, screaming, acting pushy, violent, mean "accept me" that's just wrong.
People should find common grounds no matter how different, and not to point out their differences imo.
That's where real acceptance is.
As for you, please don't feel bad, just accept the truths and feel good with your self, not everyone will or can accept how you feel, but than again its your own feelings, you should, IMO, work on yourself, not on others.
Coming out of the shell is never easy, and talking to family is very important, heck! they should be the first person to love you even if you're an Adolf Hitler!
Lastly, as i said, there are no homophones, there are just douche-bags.
Even non LGBT people deal with them, trust me! A friend of mine who is a lesbian considered ME a homophobe lol but i was just speaking honestly with ther, and never insulting her and i love her. But sometimes you just got to tell what makes you "bleed" cause people many times don't know, but also tbh, people can also be to touchy over nothing. I mean its my opinion, so it has no logic to feel angry because I have an opinion. I get the feeling arises from frustration and desire to be understood, but trust and understanding is built slowly, impatient is just never good for that.
So in the end, what i think about homophobia and such... i think its a phobia as i said, lol but seriously, i think people should find common grounds and not point out the differences.
WHO literally cares what we like sexually..and that's perfectly OK, cause i want my things to be private anyway.
Also as i said, family is the first people that have obligation to accept you and love you (but its not like they are forced, but its a natural obligation, they really do).
As Morgan Freeman said, if you want racism to stop, than don't talk about it. I mean its nothing special really, that's what i said, who cares. And people who do anything to homosexuals should not be treated anything differently than if they heard heterosexual person or a black one....
My honest opinion is WHO GIVES A FUCK, people are people...i mean that's what we have in common right?
As for what i think about the hate for LGBT..againg who the fuck cares if tis lgbt, hate is wrong and thats it, but its natural, and it has its reasons. I told that its natural response of people to react to it, and i think some lgbt activists to it in such deliberate way, they are "opening up" that they do more dammage to LGBT comunity that benefits. Mark my words...
I mean you can put a flag on a profile because you feel bettrer that way but in the end, it will just annoy some people and in reality it doesn't matter. If you live in a world where you dont feel oppressed to be lgbt i can guaranty that you WONT put any lgbt flags on your profile picture, cause it wouldnt matter, its your private thing. You cant realistically expect everione to acept liking LGBT or acepting. Some people never will and im one of them. I cant tell its natural cause its not, and if someone present me evidence that it is, ill consider to change my mind. BUTt there is a big BUT HERE Acepting homosexuality as a fenomena and aceptinag a person is a Whole different thing.
Im a type of person that hate no one, in fact i dont know, i'm incapable of hating literally. I tried, but i cant't..not do i want.. BUT (again with butts) feeling strong negative emotions is completly natural, and i can feel them, but imho, hating is not a emotion, its decision that we make to beam those emotions into certain direction or a person (
much like shin godzilla does with its nuclear breath), than we have object to hate. You'd often hear i hate this or that or you, and not "i hate" there is always something to hate, its much easier to hate SOMETHING, than to live with strong emotions and deal with them.
Id just say that labels are very dangerous. Labels are product of our minds and not actual things. Ther is no such thing as LGBT or homophobes or lesbians or black people.
There are people who have personal preference to other sexes, people that have black skin, people with white shik, people who dont like something or prefer other things...but we are all people in reality. IN REALITY.