Hi bradzx~
It's not totally related, but I'd like to talk about myself as well. I'm Asian. I moved to America 4 years ago, but nobody welcomed me: I couldn't speak the language. I was totally mute when I first moved here. Terribly mute and socially awkward. From being accustomed to my own language, and the fact that I moved here in a 'socially active' age, I just couldn't blend with the others. I also had a cultural barrier to overcome. Seriously, who would expect me to know Family Guy or SpongeBob when I first moved here?
I didn't. I didn't know what games they liked or what they liked to eat or what they were talking about--nothing. I became even more mute, and as people started 'noticing' my 'insignificance' (pun intended
), they started talking about me. About the mute Asian guy and started making fun of me. I became more and more mute. I hated everybody. I started studying harder and harder (since that was all I did without any friends
), I tried more and more, and here I am. Four years after. I'm literate in the English language. I whooped those losers who made fun of me. I'm socially improving as well. I've made some friends with similar interests (although I still can't let myself go away from the Internet
).
My eldest brother is in somewhat of a similar situation as you are: his left ear is totally blocked by skin (just a minor physical birth defect), hindering his audibility. It's not like his nerves are severed or anything, but sound is a mechanical wave, meaning that it needs a medium (like air molecules) to move through before reaching one's ear. Since his ear is blockaded, the flow of air isn't great, essentially making him deaf on his left ear. But since you are literally deaf, it must be worse than his situation.
Also, your right year seems semi-deaf, whereas my brother's is totally fine.
Now, why did I bring up my bro, you ask? I just wanted to tell you that he, too, went through a language/cultural barrier like me. But now, he is successful and into his 3rd year in College (where he was asked to become an assistant teacher, which counts as a community service), while working in Dell. He even studies and works during his summer break to meet his expectations. I'm totally proud of him.
That said, it's not much different than your situation; you have the capability to improve upon yourself and be excepted here with effort. Although you're almost deaf, you can use some aid to help you on your hearing. It's still not late to try and learn better grammar. Don't let being deaf or having a language barrier impair your future. You can also become successful.
Now, improve yourself, and go laugh back at those who laughed at you!