Hey..
Well, I just wanted to say that now is the time to make yourself proud. Stay strong if you can for you family, but don't strain yourself too much. I know that it'll be very hard to get it out of your mind, but it's ok, it's not about blocking it out and acting like it never happened. Think about it as much as you need to, cry, whatever it is you do in times like these, but never give up. Things will get better one day, and I want you to be around when that happens.