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Ok, here's what happened last night. She came over, as did my bro and a friend, and we played Guitar Hero 3 and drank to enjoy my birthday. I wanted to chat to her and have a proper chat about everything, bring up some of the points you guys and gals have made, but she just said "we'll talk after your birthday" because she didn't want to ruin my birthday. She was supposed to be going home but her mum wouldn't allow her to travel alone at that time, so she had to stay over, and because my friend was sleeping on the couch she stayed in my bed, but we were both clothed, and on opposite sides of the bed. I asked if I could hug up to her as it would be the last chance I'd have to do so, so she let me but she drew away after a while crying again saying "I can't do it", so I apologized because I knew she was hurting. Then she started crying saying how she loves me and she can't be with anyone else, then...erm...god knows what happened but we ended up having passionate mind blowing sex, easily the best I've ever had.
Then when we woke up this morning it was all awkward again and she was very quiet, and I was too, because I still don't think we're right and I think she might have subconsciously hoped that I would get back with her after shagging. We still need the talk, but I don't know if I should leave it till we've had a couple of weeks or a month apart to talk or if we should talk asap. I wish I hadn't slept with her because it's just made things harder and made it all hurt so much more, but i couldn't help myself and she couldn't help herself. I'm in a right pickle, I feel like I should not be with her but she seems to want me so much she's like a lost little girl, and I really don't think anything will change if we get back together. She swears she can change but this has happened several times, not so dramatic and final but the whole cycle nonetheless, with her promising to change everytime. I feel I should probably make a clean cut but it's really hard to do and I'm still not sure if I want to or if it would be right. I'm gonna bring all this out in "the talk", but again I don't know if I should wait a month or so to think or talk asap.
EDIT
Never mind here's an e-mail from her, I guess that means it really is over:
hiya just want to say last night was amazing so strong umm and intense, just want you to know i love you and will always be ready if you want me as your girlfriend unless you've had sexual contact with someone else a makes me cringe, ill c you around miss you very much hope you have a more than good future im saying this meanin i cant be friends with you its too much x
ps please keep my gifts im keeping yoursx
Then when we woke up this morning it was all awkward again and she was very quiet, and I was too, because I still don't think we're right and I think she might have subconsciously hoped that I would get back with her after shagging. We still need the talk, but I don't know if I should leave it till we've had a couple of weeks or a month apart to talk or if we should talk asap. I wish I hadn't slept with her because it's just made things harder and made it all hurt so much more, but i couldn't help myself and she couldn't help herself. I'm in a right pickle, I feel like I should not be with her but she seems to want me so much she's like a lost little girl, and I really don't think anything will change if we get back together. She swears she can change but this has happened several times, not so dramatic and final but the whole cycle nonetheless, with her promising to change everytime. I feel I should probably make a clean cut but it's really hard to do and I'm still not sure if I want to or if it would be right. I'm gonna bring all this out in "the talk", but again I don't know if I should wait a month or so to think or talk asap.
EDIT
Never mind here's an e-mail from her, I guess that means it really is over:
hiya just want to say last night was amazing so strong umm and intense, just want you to know i love you and will always be ready if you want me as your girlfriend unless you've had sexual contact with someone else a makes me cringe, ill c you around miss you very much hope you have a more than good future im saying this meanin i cant be friends with you its too much x
ps please keep my gifts im keeping yoursx