a solution was found.
i found myself reading stuff on my way home/school for last years and ppl at bus would think that as soon as i get home, i'll study to death, but when i got home, i would just not study.
so i realized there is something wrong with my home. donno what it is.
u see, when i'm out i'm not in this aura of not-to-study, atleast, its less.
atleast i can start to study and atleast read like 30 minutes.
so i went out.
i went to a local park and started there, and it was good.
i didnt reach my desired study time (didnt will to do it first time in 10 years!) but atleast i studied there, something that would NEVER happen at home. and it got me feel better.
and to mention, i didnt bring my DS there, actually i play DS more at home in contrast to outside, since ppl look strange and i'm afraid they steal it from me.
there is a local library in that park but i can just use half of the week (they dont allow more!) and i subscribed there i used it once, cannot use it on wednesdays.
thats the story of my 5hours in 3days, today was 1hour, last two days was 2hours each.
and since i fast (muslim's fast) i cannot study as good as possible, cause of lack of fuel for my brain.
and my key is this, GET OUT OF YOUR ROOM.
and i felt this in many ways, whenever i get to our main street, i can go anywhere and do lost of stuff, but back in home, i just skip them.
so as soon as i get out, i'll at least reach some of my goals.
my goal for my entrance program is study 8 hours per day, my brother says 4hours is good, but i dont think so.
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but other problem still resides there, the pins in the chair.
the problem that when ur sitting on ur chain, u just want to get out, thats another boss to defeat. any soloutions?
today i forced myself, really hard to stay on that bench, it was so hard, but guess what happened! i solved some of problems that i marked to ask my professor about!
if u have any soloutions/tips/tricks, i would love to hear it.
BTW, i found playing GBA much more than DS! i think GBA is much better than my DS, i dont play DS games with it anymore, i found myself always going to GBA menu!