I wish when i grow up, that i will have just a tiny bit of your personality and optimism. You have had quite a while ride, but hey what would i know im only 16, failing at school and have failed at taking my life.
Comparing whats happened in my life so far to yours i realised i must harden the fuck up. After reading your post and the values that you stand by, it really has inspired me to go and make something of my life, to aim a little higher, to try at school and not bitch about my life and actaully do something about it.
Strange this is, i respect you. I dont respect anyone, im just a snobby kid who looks out for only himself and doesnt give a shit about anyone. I've never really looked up to anyone as a role model, my dad failed at that. It brings happiness to me to think i sorta have someone i want to be like. Even through the hard times you still look for the positive things, thats a quality i want to have.
I want to say i hope you continue to be who you are, do what you do and think what you think. Even though life is hard wouldnt it be awesome to be able to re-call on your whole while you are on your death bed dying and smile to yourself thinking you alone have accomplished something worth while. That is what i want in life, i only hope you find what you are seeking and want in life and accomplish what you want before its too late.