This is not exactly the first time 'this' happened.
4 years ago the dad of a good friend of mine got in a car accident.
He was unstable in hospital for over a month. But eventually he passed out.
My moods are shifting constantly. From the one moment I'm like 'wow.. She is dead now. I have to move on'
but then I go 'she fucking died today'
It hit me harder than I had expected.
Thanks though guys.