I realized today, as the date of my best friend/brother's death gets closer, I'll never get fully over it. There is a hole in my life now that will never be filled. I wish I was a better a friend and an even better brother. I wish I could've done all the things I wanted us to do together.
Ugh, today is my best friend's birthday and exactly one month later is when he died last year. It's been a rough, rough year. Trying not to let it get me down and just remembering the 20+ years we had as friends and brothers.