I don't have a lot of people in my world, I have my fiancee and my son but apart from people who choose to be around me I have nobody,
I think I suffer from social anxiety and this has driven me to be a very sceptical and negative person, always thinking people have an alterior motive and questioning maybe general interactions. Because of this I say certain people are assholes and I avoid them at all costs.
I struggle to talk to people I don't know and look for an out as quick as possible, even to the point of ignoring people if I can, for example if I'm at the water cooler with a colleague I will say nothing, fill up my water bottle and leave as soon as I can, at time I will just walk there, see people I know and then walk the other way, just to avoid interaction. It's even come to the point that when I post on this site and people don't respond to my comments I take it as if I have nothing important to say.
I hate who I am, I wish I could have genuine connections, I wish I could respond healthily and not dissect every interaction I have. I wish I could atleast be a little positive.
I've had a shit time in life, rejected by my parents at 16, been in socal care and been homeless for portions of my life, this was a while ago but I guess I've struggled to let go of this and I don't know how to move on.
I wish I could resemble some form of nornal
I think I suffer from social anxiety and this has driven me to be a very sceptical and negative person, always thinking people have an alterior motive and questioning maybe general interactions. Because of this I say certain people are assholes and I avoid them at all costs.
I struggle to talk to people I don't know and look for an out as quick as possible, even to the point of ignoring people if I can, for example if I'm at the water cooler with a colleague I will say nothing, fill up my water bottle and leave as soon as I can, at time I will just walk there, see people I know and then walk the other way, just to avoid interaction. It's even come to the point that when I post on this site and people don't respond to my comments I take it as if I have nothing important to say.
I hate who I am, I wish I could have genuine connections, I wish I could respond healthily and not dissect every interaction I have. I wish I could atleast be a little positive.
I've had a shit time in life, rejected by my parents at 16, been in socal care and been homeless for portions of my life, this was a while ago but I guess I've struggled to let go of this and I don't know how to move on.
I wish I could resemble some form of nornal