Fuck, I don't feel so nice since a while. I had a lot of problems, I've feel so depressed and angry... I think writing and talking about this would make me feel a little bit better...
Before beginning, my parents are psychologists... and my sister is so annoying, well, sometimes, whenever she wants talk to me and love me... But I don't know what the fuck happened to my sister , that sometimes always acts different, like bipolar.
ugh, anyway...
Last month I was doin' well. But now, for some strange reason, I don't know if is it me, or I don't know, my parents are fucking me with "Hey! you didn't your homework!" "Hey! Do this!" "Hey! order your room!"
First of all... RARELY I HAVE HOMEWORK, WHAT IS THE PART THEY DOESN'T UNDERSTAND MY TEACHERS RARELY LEAVES ME HOMEWORK AND I ALWAYS TO THE HOMEWORK? I told him over 100 times, and they still doesn't seems understand. I even showed my drew notebook where I write all the damn homeworks, and they doesn't believe me. What a bullshit. Does they think I'm lying?!
Second. I always order my room, the problem is my sister is on the same room as me. So, you know, when two or three lives in a single room, there is always disaster, well at the least if these are ordened, right? But no, my sister is a fucking disaster, I even need to order the room over 5 times at the same day. Shit, I told him "Please keep the room clean. I don't want have problems with my parents!" I told her over 10 times too. She doesn't even care, like today, her clothes are dropped in my room. So, I don't move anything of my sister because if I even touch one thing of my sister stuff... She will be out of control. Like "Where are my things?!" "Don't touch it! You have your hands dirty!" , and I mean "what the fuck". So, that's not the reason, the reason is everytime my mom comes to see my room (why?) my mom sometimes says to me to order the room, but again, I don't touch my sister things because I already said it. She'll be out of control if I move him.
And last... My parents says I don't cooperate on the house, what the fucking shit?! I always help on the house! I always wash the dirty food dishes! I always clean my room, if it wasn't for my sister, I had no problem with that! I always do my homework even if my teachers leaves me homework rarely...!
The other thing boooored asf and sleepy is my parents had a talk with me... damn.
You know, psychologan talk, they always asks silly things to you... like if you're a retarded. I never listen them. Because that talks sucks, and are bored than I get so sleepy. Sometimes it makes me angry because I want to leave right now and I can't because they still want to talk! Sometimes I'm so angry that I want to grab a knife and kill myself and don't exist anymore. I just live to play Pokémon and complete a translation I'm currently doing to a japanese game. They also says "You'll have a family and you'll be great on the life"
Excuse me, but I don't want to be anything on the life. I even don't want have a family. I just want to live lonely tbh. I have not socialized with people since I feel so depressed and angry. I just have 3 friends on the school and that's all. I don't like anymore to talk with anyone irl...
Only two things can make me feel a little bit better:
My Snivy Plush
and one person that I miss...
My Snivy plush... just looking at it, makes me feel better. Like if that person I miss, he was with me always... Well, at the least...
You know? I feel like a retard too...
you know? I also miss someone I broke, because I acted like a fucking idiot and retard. Just thinking about that makes me so depressed. I have now no one to talk about my things or something... I'd love to know how is him. Even just knowing he is fine, Is totally fine to me. I'd like to say to him I'm sorry if I acted like a idiot and I lied, I was acting too retard that I didn't not even notice, or probably I hurt his feelings or even I did something that made him too angry. Just saying that to him would be nice to me, and probably can even make me feel much better. But I can't because I don't want to talk to him and I'm too scared to talk to him again... because we broke. So, each one is on the way... or maybe, just knowing how is him would be nice, even just seeing him again would be fantastic to me and saying that to him...
Last words.. I miss him a lot... I'm worried if he's OK and had no problems... I feel so retarded, and depressed losing him...
Probably I'll never talk to him and stay with him again, because I'm a idiot... He was the only one who understands me...
I think I'll be out for a while... so, if someone worries about me, meh, don't do it.
Before beginning, my parents are psychologists... and my sister is so annoying, well, sometimes, whenever she wants talk to me and love me... But I don't know what the fuck happened to my sister , that sometimes always acts different, like bipolar.
ugh, anyway...
Last month I was doin' well. But now, for some strange reason, I don't know if is it me, or I don't know, my parents are fucking me with "Hey! you didn't your homework!" "Hey! Do this!" "Hey! order your room!"
First of all... RARELY I HAVE HOMEWORK, WHAT IS THE PART THEY DOESN'T UNDERSTAND MY TEACHERS RARELY LEAVES ME HOMEWORK AND I ALWAYS TO THE HOMEWORK? I told him over 100 times, and they still doesn't seems understand. I even showed my drew notebook where I write all the damn homeworks, and they doesn't believe me. What a bullshit. Does they think I'm lying?!
Second. I always order my room, the problem is my sister is on the same room as me. So, you know, when two or three lives in a single room, there is always disaster, well at the least if these are ordened, right? But no, my sister is a fucking disaster, I even need to order the room over 5 times at the same day. Shit, I told him "Please keep the room clean. I don't want have problems with my parents!" I told her over 10 times too. She doesn't even care, like today, her clothes are dropped in my room. So, I don't move anything of my sister because if I even touch one thing of my sister stuff... She will be out of control. Like "Where are my things?!" "Don't touch it! You have your hands dirty!" , and I mean "what the fuck". So, that's not the reason, the reason is everytime my mom comes to see my room (why?) my mom sometimes says to me to order the room, but again, I don't touch my sister things because I already said it. She'll be out of control if I move him.
And last... My parents says I don't cooperate on the house, what the fucking shit?! I always help on the house! I always wash the dirty food dishes! I always clean my room, if it wasn't for my sister, I had no problem with that! I always do my homework even if my teachers leaves me homework rarely...!
The other thing boooored asf and sleepy is my parents had a talk with me... damn.
You know, psychologan talk, they always asks silly things to you... like if you're a retarded. I never listen them. Because that talks sucks, and are bored than I get so sleepy. Sometimes it makes me angry because I want to leave right now and I can't because they still want to talk! Sometimes I'm so angry that I want to grab a knife and kill myself and don't exist anymore. I just live to play Pokémon and complete a translation I'm currently doing to a japanese game. They also says "You'll have a family and you'll be great on the life"
Excuse me, but I don't want to be anything on the life. I even don't want have a family. I just want to live lonely tbh. I have not socialized with people since I feel so depressed and angry. I just have 3 friends on the school and that's all. I don't like anymore to talk with anyone irl...
Only two things can make me feel a little bit better:
My Snivy Plush
and one person that I miss...
My Snivy plush... just looking at it, makes me feel better. Like if that person I miss, he was with me always... Well, at the least...
You know? I feel like a retard too...
you know? I also miss someone I broke, because I acted like a fucking idiot and retard. Just thinking about that makes me so depressed. I have now no one to talk about my things or something... I'd love to know how is him. Even just knowing he is fine, Is totally fine to me. I'd like to say to him I'm sorry if I acted like a idiot and I lied, I was acting too retard that I didn't not even notice, or probably I hurt his feelings or even I did something that made him too angry. Just saying that to him would be nice to me, and probably can even make me feel much better. But I can't because I don't want to talk to him and I'm too scared to talk to him again... because we broke. So, each one is on the way... or maybe, just knowing how is him would be nice, even just seeing him again would be fantastic to me and saying that to him...
Last words.. I miss him a lot... I'm worried if he's OK and had no problems... I feel so retarded, and depressed losing him...
Probably I'll never talk to him and stay with him again, because I'm a idiot... He was the only one who understands me...
I think I'll be out for a while... so, if someone worries about me, meh, don't do it.