my life sucks (a depressing blog)

[DarkShinigami]

bear with me this is my first blog

so lets see where to start? for the last seven months ive been looking for a job and not succeding so lately i've said fuck it it aint like im gonna get hired. ive applied everywhere i can think of. i applied everytime the application got expired.

as for my social life i had a chick i was close to so ive been trying to sk her out in person since i believe thats the only way to ask someone out and she recently got a boyfriend replacing me. i really do mean replacing me now she wont talk to me or respond to my messages. im not sure if it is her or the boyfriends doing. i think it is the boyfriend cause to her friends came first. as for my other friends they started ignoring me when i graduated. my life is feeling like i got the black plague.

cause of the whole friends ditching me ive been really depressed lately. i have had thoughts of suicide lately. the only thing that cheers me up is games but lately that hasn't been working. it use to make my feelings numb now it a dont do shit. lately i wake in the morning and think to myself whats the point im only gonna get further depressed.

if i think of something else ill add to it

 

[Zorua]

Cheer up dude. Life doesn't revolve around friends and money. Your depression will eventually die down. It might be tough but suicide won't do anything. It's just an easy way out and you can't go back once you take it.

 

[donelwero]

Well, you have to hang in there. Times like these come and go. I'm gonna lose my job in two weeks and my baby boy was born a week ago!! What the fuck am I supposed to do now?

I mean, I'm happy that I'm a father now, but hell... I've been looking everywhere to get another job before the other one is over. Somehow I still feel like there's something out there for me, something good, something to wake up every day and fight for it. When you become a father... at least at my age, it feels like I dont have any friends, everyone's hanging out, having "fun".

You've just finished school, it's normal if you don't get to see your friends for a while, many of them are feeling like you do, finding a job it's really fucking hard, so trust me, just keep it up.

I have my baby, you just need to find what to fight for, even if your reason seems stupid now.

 

[Ssx9]

If your friends ditched you,either they have a good reason, or they aren't the kind of friends you thought they were. Sides, some people just move on in life. I know many people who left their old friends and made new ones when they graduated because they didn't have any free time to hang out togheter or even chat anymore. You could do the same and meet new people, I dunno.

As for the girl, maybe she wants to spend some time with her boyfriend. give her a couple of weeks. If it's really the boyfriend's fault, then she'll notice that and ditch him soon.

Chill out dude, everybody has this kind of problem sometime in life. Stay strong, and I'm sure that things will start turning good soon.

 

[DJPlace]

i have times like that too i wanted to kill myself. but i got through cause of thinking what if in the other world (i call it that cause i don't like the word heaven or hell) (please don't ask why ethier) is there video games. (that sounds lame but that's how i get through life) (and i have a secert crush on one of my friends at work but i can't say i love her cause i got too shy around her)

 

[DarkShinigami]

the girl i talked about finally responded to a message i sent her and told me she wants to talk i dont know why but i have bad feeling. so does anyone think i should talk to her?

 

[ShadowSoldier]

What's the worst that's going to happen? Not a whole lot.

Anyways, you're going through what I went through. I was a shut in all of last year. It's not hard to make new friends. And even then, chances of someone keeping their friends from school, slim to none. What I did that helped me, I just watched a bunch of stuff that I watched as a kid.

For some reason, watching that stuff, made me forget about all the troubles. It brought me back to a time where I didn't have to worry about anything.


And don't be afraid to blog. I mean, obviously you're going to get some dicks who come in and tell you to man the fuck up, but not everybody is able to cheer up fast.

 

[DarkShinigami]

What's the worst that's going to happen? Not a whole lot.

Anyways, you're going through what I went through. I was a shut in all of last year. It's not hard to make new friends. And even then, chances of someone keeping their friends from school, slim to none. What I did that helped me, I just watched a bunch of stuff that I watched as a kid.

For some reason, watching that stuff, made me forget about all the troubles. It brought me back to a time where I didn't have to worry about anything.


And don't be afraid to blog. I mean, obviously you're going to get some dicks who come in and tell you to man the fuck up, but not everybody is able to cheer up fast.

making friends is hard for me i am timid as all fuck i can talk more openly here cause 10 out of 10 times i wont meet any of you irl. when i try to talk to someone i get nervous as all fuck and cant talk.

 

[ShadowSoldier]

So? Everybody is. Nobody is 100% open around everybody, you gotta get comfortable with that person first. You're seriously not the only one who is having these problems. Hell, up until a few weeks ago, I only had 1 friend that I spoke to. Went to some parties, I'm friends with girls, and like 7 other guys.

 

[DarkShinigami]

So? Everybody is. Nobody is 100% open around everybody, you gotta get comfortable with that person first. You're seriously not the only one who is having these problems. Hell, up until a few weeks ago, I only had 1 friend that I spoke to. Went to some parties, I'm friends with girls, and like 7 other guys.

i guess I'll call her 2morrow but when people tell me we have to talk it always ends horribly. i lost a few friends like that. not the ones ignoring me now. i guess ill update tomorrow after i talk to her. i cant call her now its 2 in the morning where i live and she works at her mothers cafe at 7 in the morning

 

[TheTwoR's]

Alright, at night, just speak to yourself.
Tell yourself that as of the next day, you'll be an entirely new person.
Wake up. Relax. Feel refreshed.
Now go, and change yourself for what's better.
See why you can't get a job. Change that.
As for your social life, you're gonna need to know the cause of your anti-socialism.
A good tip: Pretend you are a friend of yours. Imagine seeing yourself in the 3rd person POV. What do you think of yourself now?
Did you find any bad things is that person? Change those, for what's better.
Trust me, people do change, and miracles do happen.
In 4th grade, I was the baddest kid in the whole school.
My report card did not contain a single C, and the majority of my grades were D- (F is not allowed in grade 4)
In grade 5, the amount of D-es kept increasing, and I actually got some F's.
I was depressed. I thought my life sucked.
Summer came and I spent it alone, relaxing.
I came back to school in 6th grade.
It's not that I became friendlier, but I stopped being so mean like I used to be.
I stopped caring about bothering my friends.
Instead of not even trying to do good in exams (I didn't even read the question and just write "I don't know" on the spaces), I read the exams, and solved what I can, even though I didn't care much.
Today, I am a student with straight A's and a life that cannot be better.
I'm no superhero, I'm human. So are you.

 

[DarkShinigami]

Alright, at night, just speak to yourself.
Tell yourself that as of the next day, you'll be an entirely new person.
Wake up. Relax. Feel refreshed.
Now go, and change yourself for what's better.
See why you can't get a job. Change that.
As for your social life, you're gonna need to know the cause of your anti-socialism.
A good tip: Pretend you are a friend of yours. Imagine seeing yourself in the 3rd person POV. What do you think of yourself now?
Did you find any bad things is that person? Change those, for what's better.
Trust me, people do change, and miracles do happen.
In 4th grade, I was the baddest kid in the whole school.
My report card did not contain a single C, and the majority of my grades were D- (F is not allowed in grade 4)
In grade 5, the amount of D-es kept increasing, and I actually got some F's.
I was depressed. I thought my life sucked.
Summer came and I spent it alone, relaxing.
I came back to school in 6th grade.
It's not that I became friendlier, but I stopped being so mean like I used to be.
I stopped caring about bothering my friends.
Instead of not even trying to do good in exams (I didn't even read the question and just write "I don't know" on the spaces), I read the exams, and solved what I can, even though I didn't care much.
Today, I am a student with straight A's and a life that cannot be better.
I'm no superhero, I'm human. So are you.

im not good at looking at my self in a third person view but ill keep this in mind

 

[Saken]

If you look at suicide from the perspective of your parents and the many people i'm sure that care about you, it is an incredibly selfish thing to do.

 

[ShadowSoldier]

If you look at suicide from the perspective of your parents and the many people i'm sure that care about you, it is an incredibly selfish thing to do.

You know I'm tired of hearing this excuse. So you're telling me that it's okay to be miserable and unhappy for life as long as others are happy?

 

[DarkShinigami]

If you look at suicide from the perspective of your parents and the many people i'm sure that care about you, it is an incredibly selfish thing to do.

wow good job that'll really motivate someone away from suicide. ya know name calling yes selfish is a name is not something to use on someone depressed. that coulda been the last straw. i just needed to talk to someone i feel better but please refrain from calling some one a name who is depressed

 

[ShadowSoldier]

Don't pay attention to it. When I blogged, I got a lot of dick comments from when I was depressed. It's really best to ignore it.

 

[DarkShinigami]

Don't pay attention to it. When I blogged, I got a lot of dick comments from when I was depressed. It's really best to ignore it.

thank you i just needed someone to talk to i guess you were my victim. im gonna talk to her tomorrow ill update this blog after i talk so if you wanna see how it went come back tomorrow. good night all

 

[ShadowSoldier]

No problem man. Just keep in mind that you are young, and what doesn't kill you, makes you so much more stronger so you can tackle the other hardships, with ease.

 

[porchemasi]

From what I read ...

1. Bring your resume to a workshop session and get it improved by professionals.

2. Finding a good job takes months, believe me.

3. You clearly stated a few valid reasons why you have few friends. Just slowly start talking to random people in your everyday life like cashiers, sales people, etc.

4. Get a part-time job at places where they will hire anyone. You meet great people, especially if you want to make friends. Work, even trivial jobs, make you get friends.


Long story short, the advise I gave above really did help me. I hope it will also help you. Dont forget to google how to speak to women, theres some great tips! (the clear history is not just for hiding your porn)

P.S I would go visit her at 7:30 am at the restaurant and order some breakfast. Say you have an interview down the street or something (dress nice) and ask if she wanted to tell you something?

 

[Guild McCommunist]

For jobs, I just gotta say toughen up. My dad was unemployed for a year and a half. When it's by yourself it's hard enough, but he has an entire family to support. He eventually got a job and has been working there with great success for a couple of months. On the flip side, my mother is now unemployed and basically lost her job just as my dad got his. It sucks a lot of balls but welcome to the world.

Trust me, I've had the same exact girl problems. A girl I really liked and I were good friends. Pretty close. But I was too nervous to just ask her out and instead revealed to my other friends that she had the hots for a complete douchebag. My other friends cut all ties with her and I was forced between her and my friends. I went with my friends. Sometimes I do regret that decision and other times it's the best I've made in my life.

When you graduate people usually move on, there's very few friends you'll keep in frequent contact with. It's saddening but that's usually what happens.

In the end there are people who are in much more dire situations than you and realize they have a purpose. Look at them and realize if you're life isn't as bad as theirs, that you shouldn't be so damn mopey.