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Well, not sure how long I'm gonna make this blog article, but it's kinda just me any my life's story over the past 4 years or so. So many opinions gotten from so many people on what to do, so figured I'd get some more. (oh, and it has to do with girls, and has bad words
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So I'm a guy, senior in high school now, so I've basically got nothing to loose since I'm going away to college, leaving everyone behind for a while. Not that I hate people, or hate my life, I'm not a faggy emo kid, as much as this may sound like it, I'm just kinda... feeling down now.
Alright, well 4 years ago I met a girl (let's call her 1) who was a few years younger than me, but she liked me, I liked her, we "went out" for a while (didn't do anything ever, well we went to an amusement park, she brought along girl number 2 (oh, I shall refer to them as numbers so as to keep identities out of this)) So one day she broke up with me (over the fone) I tried to act tough, not cry or anything (she was my first girlfriend) and it kinda ended there. Then girl 2 admits to liking me. I still like girl 1, but hell, I figured it was over, so I said I liked 2. I wanted to be friends with girl 1, so I basically asked for permission to go out with 2. Girl 1 got pissed the fuck off, and I didn't end up going out with girl 2. After a few months of being friends with both of them I just said, man, screw it, I can like who I want. Girl 2 had a boyfriend at this point (my sophomore year) but I still admitted to loving her (yeah... I said love, bleh) Anyway, I keep talking to her, but eventually she invites me to a park. Long story short, she kisses me, a few days later her and her boyfriend break up, and we're going out. So it's suffice to say girl 1 is basically never gonna talk to me again. Oh well, I have a girlfriend. We do stuff, blah blah blah, you don't wanna hear it, I don't wanna tell you. So eventually she breaks up with me. With nowhere else to turn I start liking girl 1 again. She begins to like me again, and we become friends for a while. She insists on "sexting" (whatever that means) no not pictures, and I don't give a damn if it's weird or wutever, but yeah. She doesn't want a relationship or anything though, well not with me at least.
Lemme take this time to explain something. Girl 1 is... emotionally unstable, to say it a nice way. She cuts herself, she's claimed to have attempted suicide multiple times, and threatened to kill herself if I told anyone. What can I say, I'm into weird girls. And I had always known, not that it was just thrown on randomly.
Ok, so back to the story. Girl 1 goes in and out of a few relationships with guys I don't know, nor want to know, and never shows any interest of doing anything with me, whether it by physical, or declaring that we're going out. So, I'm gonna flash forward to last summer. So, we build up a bit more of a "more than just friends" relationship. Start doing physical things, well, I do things... she never shows interest in it at all. I've kissed her yes, but, only a few times, the rest of the time she refuses to kiss me... A month or so ago I talk to a few of her friends. Apparently they were basically in the same situation I was in (with the sexting, and not going out) but they also mentioned kissing and that shit. I get pissed off, shouldn't I be the only one you're fooling around with? I get pissed, she gets pissed, her friends get pissed. Iunno.... So a few weeks ago she tells me she never did anything with her friends I talked to, being the gullible guy I am I believe her, we're cool again (I guess) but... I dunno.
Last time I saw her was 2 weeks ago. I figure I'd do a mini experiment here by not calling her. Of course, she doesn't call me. She hasn't called me. Probably won't. I saw her on Facebook, didn't really say anything. Well we talked (kinda) but she was just, bleh.
So now I'm feeling bleh. She (probably) doesn't really like me, then again, maybe it's the fact that she's a bit crazy, but I don't know. Well, if you read it all, congrats, you just read a 17 year old complaining about love. So, iunno, do I continue not talking to her for now? Do I call her? I've told her I love her, but the feeling's getting weaker and weaker, and she starts talking about true love. Bullshit. But whatever. So, yeah. I'm gonna go to sleep. Peace out tempers, and Merry Tempmas!
So I'm a guy, senior in high school now, so I've basically got nothing to loose since I'm going away to college, leaving everyone behind for a while. Not that I hate people, or hate my life, I'm not a faggy emo kid, as much as this may sound like it, I'm just kinda... feeling down now.
Alright, well 4 years ago I met a girl (let's call her 1) who was a few years younger than me, but she liked me, I liked her, we "went out" for a while (didn't do anything ever, well we went to an amusement park, she brought along girl number 2 (oh, I shall refer to them as numbers so as to keep identities out of this)) So one day she broke up with me (over the fone) I tried to act tough, not cry or anything (she was my first girlfriend) and it kinda ended there. Then girl 2 admits to liking me. I still like girl 1, but hell, I figured it was over, so I said I liked 2. I wanted to be friends with girl 1, so I basically asked for permission to go out with 2. Girl 1 got pissed the fuck off, and I didn't end up going out with girl 2. After a few months of being friends with both of them I just said, man, screw it, I can like who I want. Girl 2 had a boyfriend at this point (my sophomore year) but I still admitted to loving her (yeah... I said love, bleh) Anyway, I keep talking to her, but eventually she invites me to a park. Long story short, she kisses me, a few days later her and her boyfriend break up, and we're going out. So it's suffice to say girl 1 is basically never gonna talk to me again. Oh well, I have a girlfriend. We do stuff, blah blah blah, you don't wanna hear it, I don't wanna tell you. So eventually she breaks up with me. With nowhere else to turn I start liking girl 1 again. She begins to like me again, and we become friends for a while. She insists on "sexting" (whatever that means) no not pictures, and I don't give a damn if it's weird or wutever, but yeah. She doesn't want a relationship or anything though, well not with me at least.
Lemme take this time to explain something. Girl 1 is... emotionally unstable, to say it a nice way. She cuts herself, she's claimed to have attempted suicide multiple times, and threatened to kill herself if I told anyone. What can I say, I'm into weird girls. And I had always known, not that it was just thrown on randomly.
Ok, so back to the story. Girl 1 goes in and out of a few relationships with guys I don't know, nor want to know, and never shows any interest of doing anything with me, whether it by physical, or declaring that we're going out. So, I'm gonna flash forward to last summer. So, we build up a bit more of a "more than just friends" relationship. Start doing physical things, well, I do things... she never shows interest in it at all. I've kissed her yes, but, only a few times, the rest of the time she refuses to kiss me... A month or so ago I talk to a few of her friends. Apparently they were basically in the same situation I was in (with the sexting, and not going out) but they also mentioned kissing and that shit. I get pissed off, shouldn't I be the only one you're fooling around with? I get pissed, she gets pissed, her friends get pissed. Iunno.... So a few weeks ago she tells me she never did anything with her friends I talked to, being the gullible guy I am I believe her, we're cool again (I guess) but... I dunno.
Last time I saw her was 2 weeks ago. I figure I'd do a mini experiment here by not calling her. Of course, she doesn't call me. She hasn't called me. Probably won't. I saw her on Facebook, didn't really say anything. Well we talked (kinda) but she was just, bleh.
So now I'm feeling bleh. She (probably) doesn't really like me, then again, maybe it's the fact that she's a bit crazy, but I don't know. Well, if you read it all, congrats, you just read a 17 year old complaining about love. So, iunno, do I continue not talking to her for now? Do I call her? I've told her I love her, but the feeling's getting weaker and weaker, and she starts talking about true love. Bullshit. But whatever. So, yeah. I'm gonna go to sleep. Peace out tempers, and Merry Tempmas!
