I2aven's_Sage said:
Hmmm, just don't get too attached since you're moving from benefits to committed...I just hope she's been a good friend. Hopefully she's the one who asked for the commitment, might just be me, but if it isn't her idea things don't go so well =/
Yeah, after my last relationship (I got way too attached, first real relationship) I basically caved myself in education. I went through my junior and senior year of college barricading me to my education. The worst part is my major is Mathematics and I was heavily doing classes such as logic and other various forms of mathematics. The combination of all these elements turned me into a very cold person, ever since I was little I spent most of my day observing people. In most people's opinions, I am not the most sanest person around. Fascinations of patterns, mathematics, and logic has put my way of looking at things in a very different way then most people. I let my friends have Saturday and some Sunday to hang out and party or drink or something while Monday-Friday I still dedicated myself to school.
We randomly started hooking up over the last year, a couple times a week, and I never really thought anything out of it. My coldness towards people prevented it from escalating any higher then benefits. However, very sparingly I would talk about to her how I thought about things and how much I observed people and specific topics about life, and she took interest in me. For the last few months she always tried to escalate it but I really never gave her the chance.
However, I got drunk one night, pretty drunk. She asked me why we don't escalate it, and I asked her what she expected of me from a relationship. She layed out a few terms, I layed out the ground rules and cautioned her of my unpredictability nature and we just came together.
So then I had it... my second real relationship. (I have had a couple small relationships, nothing major and mainly for benefit statuses).
My first relationship was devastating, never will I lend someone so much trust only to have it broken many times.