I feel like I have been abandoned to die again: very sick (again, something from work, super gunky colored nasal discharge, exhaustion, cramping, etc.), still have work expectations I am trying to meet because I cannot take a sick day, and a bit fat zero people at this point who would answer me if I called them to ask for camaraderie, all due to petty jealousies.
So, I just don't care. Fine then. Leave me to die for all I care. Perhaps they can try their luck and see if I drop dead at work tommorrow; it's not like that hasn't happened so many times already with an "are you ok?" being the closest response I have gotten when my blood pressure almost flatlined in the middle of my job last time.
I've gotten used to being left for dead repeatedly at this point and demanded to put in loads of hours at the same time without complaining, under threat of losing my job, and consequently my life, due to termination of benefits, if I decide to take it easy for a day at home with a medical note, as they already ignored and fired others for, so what's a few more to them that already see themselves as completely above the law?
Do not worry; I survived "guaranted death" before without treatment and fully recovered anyways, without missing a single day of work before, being given in public the commendation by engineering professors that my students had exceeded their entire university curriculum in a matter of a month, emailed personally to a supervisor, only for the supevisor to despise me for not sitting in my chair doing nothing like the rest of the staff all day looking up football records while getting "teacher of the year." I won't die, but I can sure ask The LORD to take me off this Earth as He did Enoch and EliJah if the world's violence will not suffer me being here.
They can just go back to trying to endanger and run families over, like they enjoy doing out of road rage, and disowning me for being a Christian among the family. And work can just go about business seeing children as numbers rather than human beings, as they so utterly enjoy doing.
I'm just disgusted with how far people will carry an unfounded grudge and simply not even bother helping children and encouraging them, that's all.
It's not like anyone here absolutely has to pay this any mind at the moment whatsoever. Go back to what you always seem to enjoy if you want; scoff me and tell me that you think I am wrong. Nothing will stop you from blatantly telling me how awful of a person you think I am for doing my best to help others, will it?
you had better hurry; maybe if you try hard enough, I might even stop with the snark and just talk to everyone directly and plainly about the sort of nonsense I've managed to put up with up to this point.