The past may be real but you shouldn't lose sight of your future. Take it from me its not worth it to beat yourself up over. You're a good person and your mother wouldn't want you to blame yourself.
She does love you. The best thing you can do now is make your peace with god say some prayers. Go be with her as much as you can I mean she does know that you have a life and people have work and are busy to. Shes NOT mad at you she probably feels terrible because she feels like she might pass away. Your job as a son is to be there for her no matter what she says. This is what counts the most. Don't do to yourself what I did to myself after my mom passed away. I'm still hooked on oxycodone even though I take it for pain. Even though my situation is different with the pills i have a jaw joint prosthesis in my jaw thats made of chromium cobalt with a plastic cup attached to it that xrays wont pick up on the plastic. No doctor wants to take this retarded prosthesis out so now I need to get a loophole through insurance to get it removed out of state at a major university hospital. So even if I wanted off the pills I couldn't because the pain is that horrible. Anyway what I'm trying to say is seize the moment and move mountains while you can. I don't care what the fuck people think of me. If you ask me, these drugs should be legalized the whole multi billion dollar drug war can end tomorrow. We would be saving an astronomically amount of money. And so what if people complain, too much legalized alcohol can kill you and you don't see there being another prohibition on it. As far as dope goes there should be wayy more clinics out there where you can detox or shootup legally with clean needles. We could make a safer cleaner society but look no further than the corrupt politicians. Any tom, dick, or harry can get drugs if they really wanted to so what is the point but to make it 99% safer. Sorry for the rant.. and for those who want to battle it out with me on forums for a debate waste your time I won't respond.
the whiskey was good, i wasnt.Was the whiskey ok???
