Yea guys! I did it, I finally managed to get into a artschool. I'm going to get BFA in painting. Yes I'm going to
be another jobless talentless faggot of the world
Anyway... This whole thing is now pretty silly and
TL;DR if you care read it if you don't, don't reply.
How did I met this girl...
When I was at the selection course I first saw her. I thought "DUDE, SHE'S HOT" and seriously no fucking kidding:
she's hot. She has this perfect angel face. I went to sit next to her and I talked to her all kind of shit. She seemed
pretty shy and innocent. And then I cracked some stupid joke and then she smiled. And I was thinking "DUDE ... IS THAT
THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SMILE YOU EVER SEEN OR WHAT". I wasn't really having high hopes with the selection course.
I just did what I did of course and I was surprised that established artist who was judge told me that he liked my stuff.
And I was of course pretty fucking happy. And of course I talked some funny things with this hot chick and she seemed
to enjoy my company even though she didn't speak much. Okay I got into school
. I went to get my stuff and I also
saw her name at the list because I remember that her name was pretty special. I don't translate it but it means "flower bud"
and surely she is flower bud. Very fitting name for hot chick like her.
Forwarding time...
Well I had this shitty job during summer and I really didn't think her. I just thought "This ... Is ... Horrible". Yea then school
began and I started to hang around with this chick more. We talked and she seemed more open. And we talked and talked.
She seemed bit shy and stressed somehow but I liked that she gave me attention and wanted to hang around me. She even
sit front of me and it felt teasing when we draw some shitty outside views and I was really having the most hard time on
concentrating at drawing. Okay I asked her after school "hey wanna go grab a coffee" and she came with me. And I thought
"Damn now this perfect angel is coming with me at coffee" Well. She didn't order coffee but a cider. And I orded a cider too.
And she started talking all kind of stuff and I listened her and talked all kind of crap too. We are both 21 so it's legal to drink
What she talked...
She told me that her ex was pretty fucking dick on her. She didn't say it but I understood that she was beaten and maybe
something like that. Her ex went to jail on some crimes and shit and she was really talking like "I don't
want to see that pig ever again." And I went like "Damn that's nasty". Then she said "I haven't dated anyone like in two
years or so" and I was thinking like "Shiiit this is my change!" But I had to go and we left and I said "Bye, nice weekend etc."
What I gathered on her
Well she isn't that innocent what I have gathered. She is pretty heavy drinker but she says it's only because she is shy. And
surely I can understand it. I also drink for my shyness but she was more drunk at our school party than I was. And she said
to me "You are not drunk enough". Also she said "Everytime I had lot's of money I get lot's of hash and I smoke everyday
when I have money. It relaxes me." Well hash smoking is not that bad but she's into acid too which I'm not into. But she seem
to trust me so she told me about some funny stories she experienced and stuff. And that hash smoking I don't know if she was
100% serious.
After school party...
I started to hang out with her more at the school. Somehow maybe she got that I have crush on her and she started to withdraw
more. Or what I felt. Because one day I told her "You look so beautiful" when she was looking really beautiful. Maybe I was
bit drunk on her company and too excited and talked some stuff like "I would like to take you out someday" and she went like
"We will see". It just boggles me that one day she is totally withdrawn and then other day she is like "We could go to bar someday
and discuss about that book what you borrowed me". Like... what is going on? Like she has these brave days when she seem to
be normal and enjoy my company and then she have these withdraw days when she is not. Lately I felt like she had these withdraw
days more but I think maybe she has PMS. Or she hates me? Because I was thinking that maybe she thought I was a faggot like
all the other boys in the class. We don't have many other boys. Just like 3 and me and those 3 are bunch of fags who are not probably
into girls. Then when she found out that I wasn't into boys she started to withdraw because her past experiences with her ex?
Dunno... anyway. What would you suggest?
1) Just keep her as friend and talk her at the school and forget her because she seems to be impossible crush too many problems and
get a girlfriend from internet or some other chick from our class...
2) Talk with her more and hang out her with more and siege her like fortress until she lower the fortress gates over trench?
3) I should tell her her that "I have crush on you. You are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen" and I will probably get some answer
like "Blaa blaa my ex and shit I don't want to date anyone at the moment" but should I still tell this to her?
Or what? I'm confused so help me out... this is only forum that can help me because I was banned from the Digimon do exist
be another jobless talentless faggot of the world
TL;DR if you care read it if you don't, don't reply.
How did I met this girl...
When I was at the selection course I first saw her. I thought "DUDE, SHE'S HOT" and seriously no fucking kidding:
she's hot. She has this perfect angel face. I went to sit next to her and I talked to her all kind of shit. She seemed
pretty shy and innocent. And then I cracked some stupid joke and then she smiled. And I was thinking "DUDE ... IS THAT
THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SMILE YOU EVER SEEN OR WHAT". I wasn't really having high hopes with the selection course.
I just did what I did of course and I was surprised that established artist who was judge told me that he liked my stuff.
And I was of course pretty fucking happy. And of course I talked some funny things with this hot chick and she seemed
to enjoy my company even though she didn't speak much. Okay I got into school
saw her name at the list because I remember that her name was pretty special. I don't translate it but it means "flower bud"
and surely she is flower bud. Very fitting name for hot chick like her.
Forwarding time...
Well I had this shitty job during summer and I really didn't think her. I just thought "This ... Is ... Horrible". Yea then school
began and I started to hang around with this chick more. We talked and she seemed more open. And we talked and talked.
She seemed bit shy and stressed somehow but I liked that she gave me attention and wanted to hang around me. She even
sit front of me and it felt teasing when we draw some shitty outside views and I was really having the most hard time on
concentrating at drawing. Okay I asked her after school "hey wanna go grab a coffee" and she came with me. And I thought
"Damn now this perfect angel is coming with me at coffee" Well. She didn't order coffee but a cider. And I orded a cider too.
And she started talking all kind of stuff and I listened her and talked all kind of crap too. We are both 21 so it's legal to drink
What she talked...
She told me that her ex was pretty fucking dick on her. She didn't say it but I understood that she was beaten and maybe
something like that. Her ex went to jail on some crimes and shit and she was really talking like "I don't
want to see that pig ever again." And I went like "Damn that's nasty". Then she said "I haven't dated anyone like in two
years or so" and I was thinking like "Shiiit this is my change!" But I had to go and we left and I said "Bye, nice weekend etc."
What I gathered on her
Well she isn't that innocent what I have gathered. She is pretty heavy drinker but she says it's only because she is shy. And
surely I can understand it. I also drink for my shyness but she was more drunk at our school party than I was. And she said
to me "You are not drunk enough". Also she said "Everytime I had lot's of money I get lot's of hash and I smoke everyday
when I have money. It relaxes me." Well hash smoking is not that bad but she's into acid too which I'm not into. But she seem
to trust me so she told me about some funny stories she experienced and stuff. And that hash smoking I don't know if she was
100% serious.
After school party...
I started to hang out with her more at the school. Somehow maybe she got that I have crush on her and she started to withdraw
more. Or what I felt. Because one day I told her "You look so beautiful" when she was looking really beautiful. Maybe I was
bit drunk on her company and too excited and talked some stuff like "I would like to take you out someday" and she went like
"We will see". It just boggles me that one day she is totally withdrawn and then other day she is like "We could go to bar someday
and discuss about that book what you borrowed me". Like... what is going on? Like she has these brave days when she seem to
be normal and enjoy my company and then she have these withdraw days when she is not. Lately I felt like she had these withdraw
days more but I think maybe she has PMS. Or she hates me? Because I was thinking that maybe she thought I was a faggot like
all the other boys in the class. We don't have many other boys. Just like 3 and me and those 3 are bunch of fags who are not probably
into girls. Then when she found out that I wasn't into boys she started to withdraw because her past experiences with her ex?
Dunno... anyway. What would you suggest?
1) Just keep her as friend and talk her at the school and forget her because she seems to be impossible crush too many problems and
get a girlfriend from internet or some other chick from our class...
2) Talk with her more and hang out her with more and siege her like fortress until she lower the fortress gates over trench?
3) I should tell her her that "I have crush on you. You are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen" and I will probably get some answer
like "Blaa blaa my ex and shit I don't want to date anyone at the moment" but should I still tell this to her?
Or what? I'm confused so help me out... this is only forum that can help me because I was banned from the Digimon do exist
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