I relapsed after 135 days.. on nofap

Well I relapsed after 135 days and feel like a complete failure. I feel shame, depressed, can not connect with my gf, feel like isolating and I can feel the urge in my sick head to go back and look at more h anime
yesterday I was in the house alone all day so I binges on h sites on social media, ( I have a block on at home but can get around it by going to social media).
I have been playing around with sub-porn for the last few days and then after an argument with my gf I said screw it it.
I really do not want to go back in to that dark world but I am worried that the dopamine and nuro-pathways I over loaded on yesterday will drag me back. In the past when I have relapsed it usually takes me a lot of pain or a complete break down with my wife before I make a effect to stop using porn. This sometime takes months.

Anyway I commit to stay clean just for today. Just for the next 12 hours.

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Logan Pockrus
@Catastrophic
Oh, okay, I thought you meant that literally. I just couldn't stop thinking "well why not wash your hands".
 
The Catboy
I seriously don't get the reason why masturbation is taboo nor the reason why anyone would be ashamed of it. Everyone does it and trying not to honestly seems more unhealthy. People have urges and ignoring them doesn't solve the problem, if anything it makes it worse because now you are making a blog on a gaming site about it.
Just masturbate, there's tons of health benefits to it, you'll feel better afterwards if you stop forcing yourself to be feel guilty, and honestly you'll focus better. If aren't focusing on not masturbating, you can actually focus on living.
 
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The Catboy
bannana2
And she most likely masturbates too because everyone does it and anyone claiming otherwise is just lying to themselves and others for stupid reasons.
 
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T
@Crystal the Glaceon I really don't lmao
 
GalladeGuy
@TheVinAnator Unless you're really young, I highly doubt that you've never at least played around for a little bit.
 
Logan Pockrus
@GalladeGuy
I know I used the phrase "slap the monkey", but "played around for a bit"? Christ, that doesn't sound right....
 
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Logan Pockrus
Sayings like that always make me feel uncomfortable. I'd much rather someone be blunt and use "jerk off" or whatever else instead of "playing around".
 
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The Catboy
TheVinAnator
anyone claiming otherwise is just lying to themselves and others for stupid reasons.
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Unless you are extremely young or something is medically wrong with your genital, I have my doubts to your claims. If you are extremely young, then I am going to say one thing, you will masturbate one day and it's completely natural to do so. If you have something wrong with your genital, I am sorry, my comment is not meant to be taken as a joke or something insincere. Or if you are taking a moral high ground, please get off your high horse and properly get off.
 
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jDSX
@Crystal the Glaceon You don't get it, I have a bad addiction to..well hentai and frapping to it and this was suppose to keep me strong without "doing it" each day several times nofap but I failed and feel bad about my urges get this best of me.
 
Logan Pockrus
@jDSX
If you do have that much of a problem, you might consider seeking professional help. I know this subject is embarrassing to talk about, but a professional won't make fun of you (be it because they are mature, or because they want your money).
 
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The Catboy
I am going to be honest, anyone who masturbates on a regular basis thinks they have an addiction. But in most cases it's actually either a normal amount and or slightly above average.
But giving it up is not going to help you, if anything it's hurting you. You are now showing signs of self pity for something you shouldn't be ashamed of. What you need to learn is moderation, if you control yourself through simple moderation, you will feel a lot better. Trust me, I once tried to give it up completely before as well and ended up in your shoes. By the end, I was even more depressed than when I started. Instead of giving it up, I just learned to control myself and limit myself.
Also I don't think you quite understand what an addiction to hentai looks like, trust me.
 
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G
Fun fact: Masturbation actually is beneficial to your health; it can help reduce prostate cancer and also lets you destress.

Everyone has and will masturbate(d) in their life, unless you're held in a society where masturbation is wrong. There is a difference between "I like masturbating" and "IF I DON'T MASTURBATE I AM DEPRESSED"; people in relationships can also do it; heck some couples do it together!

There's my view.
 
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RevPokemon
This is what i love about gbatemp. I get to see how everyone faps in thier own personal lives and how often. Now i will view you all different.
 

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