Heh, depressed bnwchbammer again, it's been a few months hasn't it?
Well
I said I wrote the best blogs when I'm depressed
But this just might be story time.
Please excuse grammar mistakes as I have the Hot Fuss album blasting in my ears.
(Great album)
So you must be thinking it's about a girl,
Everyone gets depressed at a girl.
And you'd be right!
(God there are a lot of these posts on this forum lately)
...
(women, the things we go through for them)
Well
I started talking more to the friend I liked from a while ago.
Fuck my whole plan of trying to get two girls at once who don't know eachother.
This time it's just one.
I'm going to prom with her.
Though in January she stopped talking to me for a while cuz I promised her I'd "love her forever"
Then fell out of love.
I talked to her a month later.
Asked her to prom.
Obviously she said yes.
I like to believe she's in love with me,
But maybe not.
Anyway
Two days ago she told me she's not a virgin anymore.
Basically
I wanted to punch the monitor until my hand was bleeding.
But I didn't.
It happened after I said I didn't love her anymore.
Not right after.
But soon after.
Apparently a one time thing...
What should I be feeling?
Should I be mad as fuck because I have known her since I moved here?
Since we had done stuff?
In the back seat of a car which she has cried of because she drove past it?
Should I be wutever about it?
After she broke up with me a few years back I had my first kiss with her best friend.
Is this repayment?
What the fuck should I feel?
It's not my business who she has sex with...
But I wanted it to be me so badly!
Well, that's my blog.
Listening to "Smile like you mean it" at this exact moment.
Hah.
I think I'm gonna go break my old fone that I have texts saved to.
Peace!
Well
I said I wrote the best blogs when I'm depressed
But this just might be story time.
Please excuse grammar mistakes as I have the Hot Fuss album blasting in my ears.
(Great album)
So you must be thinking it's about a girl,
Everyone gets depressed at a girl.
And you'd be right!
(God there are a lot of these posts on this forum lately)
...
(women, the things we go through for them)
Well
I started talking more to the friend I liked from a while ago.
Fuck my whole plan of trying to get two girls at once who don't know eachother.
This time it's just one.
I'm going to prom with her.
Though in January she stopped talking to me for a while cuz I promised her I'd "love her forever"
Then fell out of love.
I talked to her a month later.
Asked her to prom.
Obviously she said yes.
I like to believe she's in love with me,
But maybe not.
Anyway
Two days ago she told me she's not a virgin anymore.
Basically
I wanted to punch the monitor until my hand was bleeding.
But I didn't.
It happened after I said I didn't love her anymore.
Not right after.
But soon after.
Apparently a one time thing...
What should I be feeling?
Should I be mad as fuck because I have known her since I moved here?
Since we had done stuff?
In the back seat of a car which she has cried of because she drove past it?
Should I be wutever about it?
After she broke up with me a few years back I had my first kiss with her best friend.
Is this repayment?
What the fuck should I feel?
It's not my business who she has sex with...
But I wanted it to be me so badly!
Well, that's my blog.
Listening to "Smile like you mean it" at this exact moment.
Hah.
I think I'm gonna go break my old fone that I have texts saved to.
Peace!
