After some lore digging I find my believe ultimately tied to Lovecraft. The core concept is that what we see as godlike and almighty is merely a superior being, and the vastness of everything reflects our insignificance. On its hierarchy our deities are lower beings whose power and existence are tied to mortal worship (there is a mutual effect and beings imagined by imaginary beings can still exist), while still comparable to the likes of the great old ones like Cultulu (the most well known being in lore is just some weak monster who was hurt by getting rammed into by a ship) and lesser entities. This includes many pantheons of Paganism (like Zeus, Odin, up to the likes of Gaea, and Christian/ Judaism/ Muslim god and other Monotheism god is arguable but still bounded within this range) excluding some really prominent primordial beings (like Chaos). In short, anything we can remotely comprehend and draw a metaphor to are at best deities and in the grand scale pathetically insignificant. But these are nothing when climbing the hierarchy further, but then we are too insignificant to even be noticed. And for the sake of sanity best to avoid thinking about our insignificance. Then there is the argument than if our world is even composed of vector field or really just plain information (but a computer is just a metaphor as it would not require a frame to exist, but that's just my argument). And before anyone says I am talking drugs I would argue that drugs are supposed to give you a sense of security.