Help?

[SoraKeyofFate]

I don't really know where to start. Today I was on the verge of killing myself. After exams I spent 2 1/2 hours sitting around with friends coming and going. I didn't really say anything. Then after, at around 4:15, I walked down the street from my school to a bridge and just stood there looking over the edge. I was leaning pretty far over, but then a car passed by and someone yelled something. I don't know whether it was "jump!" or "what's wrong?" but it made me turn around, and I walked home. My head is spinning from all the things going through my head and describing on a forum would take too long. I just put this here as a way to make myself feel like I'm letting someone know.

 

[Overlord Nadrian]

"Why?" is the only thing that comes to mind.

 

[SoraKeyofFate]

I just can't take it anymore. My friends don't look like they want to hang out with me anymore, and I'm never a part of what they talk about. I've done so much for this girl, but she said she would rather not go out with me. She always used to rant to me how the person she likes pays no attention to her and one of my "good" friends is always with her spending time with her. She would rather hang out with anyone but me. And because it used to be so obvious, people always bug me about her. On top of that, my parents are always yelling at me. They yell when I play video games, draw or spend time on the computer.

I'm also sorry if this brought anyone down or anything.

 

[mameks]

oh...feel sorry for you man, but...i don't know how to explain...
mmm, either talk to someone you actually know, or find something to distract yourself with.

 

[SoraKeyofFate]

kthanks
will try again

 

[Coto]

Take it easy...

Just focus on what makes you feel better.

When I have such f*****ing days, I spend some time distracting playing videogames, or else, prefer going out for a walk.

Maybe you should fill and enjoy of yourself rather than others?

 

[Devin]

Just one word. "Don't". Kingdom Hearts:Birth By Sleep will be released soon, and you don't wanna miss it.

Just get rid of the things that are causing you pain. Don't get rid of yourself.

1.Get new friends, or find a way to relate to your old ones.
2.Find someone else?
3.Get some headphones.

 

[SoraKeyofFate]

thanks for that guys, I really will try

 

[Am0s]

sounds to me you are pretty depressed to think about killing yourself, how old are you? without sounding weird or anything I have been there I know the feeling, I dont wish to type out my personal experiences on this forum for everyone to see, all you have to do in short is to go to your doctor and say you have sucidal thoughts, you dont have to suffer as there are plenty of pills to help stabalize your mind, and they are from the doctor and not not drugs off some dealer.

if you want to talk about anything you can pm me if you like.

 

[SoraKeyofFate]

I'm going into grade 11 next year, 16. Thanks for letting me know, its nice to know someone wants to listen.
I think I'm ok right now, I've distracted to myself. But can I ask if I ever need to? even later?

 

[Am0s]

of course pal anytime

 

[Slyakin]

Don't do anything rash, like that, please!


I'm always ignored, most people hate me, and I always get harassed. You know what I do? I ignore it. Racial issues cause this, so I know that they are not smart enough to understand things through, and that helps me out in things. Just take deep breaths and get some sleep. People will love you, always!

 

[Sanderino]

That sucks bro don't kill yourself, you've got a whole life before you. Things can only get better. everyone has his ups and down, some more than another but everyone has them.


Believe me,

You need to spill your heart out. If you don't want to do it at yuor friends, do it at your parents. At least, I can always tell them anything.

As for your friends, tell them your down and stuff, what's on your mind. They are FRIENDS even tough your unsure about it.

 

[Infinite Zero]

DONT kill yourself! YOur life is precious and it shouldnt just go to waste!!

 

[James B.]

http://img269.imageshack.us/img269/9849/1270160379085.png

I like this image

 

[SoraKeyofFate]

Thanks everyone, this really means a lot to me. I feel a lot better. I know that there are people that will cheer me up now.

 

[Slyakin]

Thanks everyone, this really means a lot to me. I feel a lot better. I know that there are people that will cheer me up now.

Dude, there is nothing wrong with telling your feelings to people.

I'm glad you did; Who knows what else would have happened.

Live a long and prosperous life!

 

[mthrnite]

I was in the pit of despair a few years ago after some life overturning stuff happened to me.
Members of this forum helped me through it.
Things got better, they tend to.

 

[VashTS]

its typical to feel that way when you are a teenager so if you take it for what it is, you will learn from the experience. i was in a really bad spot when i was around your age, ten years later and i'm pretty damn cool with myself now. just work through it, you gain exp points (stupid rpg joke).

if you learn to not worry about chicks now, you'll be better off in the future.

 

[SoraKeyofFate]

thanks again everyone. I like being able to come here and see all this

just work through it, you gain exp points (stupid rpg joke).

^made me laugh