"but a9lh wil brik mah 3ds"If I'm reading this right, you did the a9lhax region changing steps without having a9lhax and also have no functional backups or xorpads. This means that you are beyond fucked. Congrats.
From the guide (in bold):
"You MUST have already completed Part 5 and installed arm9loaderhax + Luma3DS to use this."
"You SHOULD have confirmed functional NAND backups of your arm9loaderhax 3DS (such as sysNAND-A9LHAX.bin) in case something goes wrong."
Neither of these things were done.