So recently my health has been shit. I went to the doctors and hospital after I'm getting messed up more and more. And it turns out that all of my cartilage and muscles in my torso is inflamed and pressing up against my bones and shit, and it hurts after a while. I got a blood test and Xray and all the regular tests done, and the doctors said for being a smoker, I have the best sounding heart they've ever heard (but then again, they probably say that to everybody). There's nothing vital that's wrong with me so that's a huge relief, but I was prescribed muscle relaxers, and they help. But I can't handle them, they freak me out lol. My body goes numb and I get freaked out by it, I just can't get used to it. So I bought some tylenol to help. It does help a lot.
Now I have a couple theories as to why my health has been kind of iffy lately.
1: With my recent tattoo's, the ink could have gotten into my blood stream and it's taking a while for my body to get used to it.
2: I'm stressed to the max, but I just don't feel it. So I feel like getting a massage is going to help a lot.
The reason why I think a massage might help is because a buddy of mine just rubbed his elbow on my back as a joke and it was the greatest feeling ever. He even said that he could just feel all the knots in me and everything.
I quit smoking weed. I think I may have grown allergic to it or something. I mean, I had a bad panic attack where my BPM was up at 160. And that was bad, I could not breathe at all, and everything. But I'm really good at controlling my heart rate and raising it and dropping it and shit, and the doctors said they're amazed by it.
But it could also be because I'm depressed. I don't feel depressed but it's a possibility. When I was in the ambulance, it was with this guy who dealt with me before (fun fact, his son is in the Olympics), and I kind of opened up to him. Maybe I'm just feeling a bit lonely and it's taking a toll on me? I mean, I've never really been with someone at all in my life. And when I was in the hospital, I was listening to all the nurses talk to each other about me around the corner, they think I couldn't hear them. They were saying nothing but nice things, and it made me feel so happy. Whatever it is, I have to get this figured out. Until then, I'm going to be taking muscle relaxers and shit.
On another note, I got KH3D. I haven't played much of it, but fuck it's fucking weird. I don't like having that stupid time limit. I want to explore and everything. I'm not the biggest fan of games where you get a time limit and can't really play the game how I want to.
Now I have a couple theories as to why my health has been kind of iffy lately.
1: With my recent tattoo's, the ink could have gotten into my blood stream and it's taking a while for my body to get used to it.
2: I'm stressed to the max, but I just don't feel it. So I feel like getting a massage is going to help a lot.
The reason why I think a massage might help is because a buddy of mine just rubbed his elbow on my back as a joke and it was the greatest feeling ever. He even said that he could just feel all the knots in me and everything.
I quit smoking weed. I think I may have grown allergic to it or something. I mean, I had a bad panic attack where my BPM was up at 160. And that was bad, I could not breathe at all, and everything. But I'm really good at controlling my heart rate and raising it and dropping it and shit, and the doctors said they're amazed by it.
But it could also be because I'm depressed. I don't feel depressed but it's a possibility. When I was in the ambulance, it was with this guy who dealt with me before (fun fact, his son is in the Olympics), and I kind of opened up to him. Maybe I'm just feeling a bit lonely and it's taking a toll on me? I mean, I've never really been with someone at all in my life. And when I was in the hospital, I was listening to all the nurses talk to each other about me around the corner, they think I couldn't hear them. They were saying nothing but nice things, and it made me feel so happy. Whatever it is, I have to get this figured out. Until then, I'm going to be taking muscle relaxers and shit.
On another note, I got KH3D. I haven't played much of it, but fuck it's fucking weird. I don't like having that stupid time limit. I want to explore and everything. I'm not the biggest fan of games where you get a time limit and can't really play the game how I want to.
