:-(

My best friend committed suicide on Friday. So.......:-(

I was such a bad friend, I didn't talk to her on the weekend cause I was a little mad she didn't come to my birthday lunch. And I hadn't visited her in a couple of weeks (she couldn't drive and she lived in the other side of town so I always visited her instead of her coming to see me as it takes like 2 hours on the bus). I don't know if it would have made any difference if I had visited her more recently - I mean she didn't try to call me or anything. But I can't help but wish I had called her on the weekend :-(
I really didn't think she was in any danger - she had been doing really well lately, got a high distinction in the one uni subject she did last semester and doing fine this semester. She moved out of the group home because she didn't need the support as much (she had severe depression and bipolar). She got a distinction in her grade 6 piano exam. And the few other times she felt like she might do something silly, she got herself checked into hospital. So I don't really know what happened this time. I hope to find out more at the funeral on Monday.

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leon315
@Quantumcat, ma'am, atm u must realize that there's nothing u can do to bring back ur friend nor prevent, only thing that really healps is talking, TALKING WITH PEOPLE will relief ur pain.

i'm wish to know something deeper behind this tragedy, try to learn how to help people near me if there are anyone who has same TC's lost friend's syndromes and try to prevent they to commit some thing stupid.

Regards.


p.s. @vinstage @BlastedGuy9905 i'm not cold blooded reptile, and i realized that people like u are just liars and never ever felt sorry for other people's loss, so stop being a dick, just keep this in mind: that i don't give a shit about these 2 dickheads, and I'm the only one who make the difference.
 
WeedZ
I'm sorry to hear that. I went through the same with someone, who was also bipolar, and for years I fought the same battle that you are now. The thing is, there's nothing you could have done, and there's no one to blame but them. The best you can do is surround yourself with friends and family. Don't shut in.
 
Cyan
Did she left a note, or an explanation to her parents or family?
are they aware of any difficulty she had to ho through or she never talked about it to anyone?

she succeeded in her exams, but maybe (probably) something else wasn't to her liking. maybe she was bullied? or it could be her depression?
 
BlastedGuy9905
"p.s. @vinstage @BlastedGuy9905 i'm not cold blooded reptile, and i realized that people like u are just liars and never ever felt sorry for other people's loss, so stop being a dick, just keep this in mind: that i don't give a shit about these 2 dickheads, and I'm the only one who make the difference."
A dickhead? I'm sorry what? You asked for the fucking news footage about their friend's death. And then you call me a dickhead because I tried to remind you that it was Quantum's best friend.
 
Olmectron
@BlastedGuy9905 I know what you're trying to do, and I think the same as you. But I think the best would be to simply ignore @leon315 responses. Please don't follow his arguing game in this blog entry.
 
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plasturion
Feel so sorry, my condolences.
Please don't blame yourself, you're good friend to her.
Lord, please save her soul. [*]
 
sp3off
Sincere condolences goes to you and her family.

It's very harsh to say to yourself that one of your best friends died, and even worse when it's about that kind of situation.I'm confused though, why end her life when she didn't have any recent problems ?
 
F
My condolences my dude.
Don't blame yourself, she had other reasons. It wasn't your fault, she remembered you as her best friend.
 
wormdood
quantum, i can sadly say i truly empathize with your position. about 3 years ago one of my closest friends committed suicide (i am older and have known him his entire life from the crib onwards) he was diagnosed bipolar at 12 and committed suicide at 25, for about a year beforehand he had moved across country and we talked less and less often, about a month of no contact goes by and i find out from his brother that he committed suicide . . . i often found myself saying "if only" when i think about it but then i remind myself (as harsh as it may sound) its what he wanted as he was battling bipolar depression most of his life knew that anyone who cared for him would talk him down (before anyone calls me a presumptuous asshole he actually expressed it to his father while his dad was on the phone with the police). . . just remember that if she wanted to be stopped she would still be here and although it may not help with the pain from the loss it will help with the "what if's".

i wish you and all of her loved ones a swift recovery
wormdood
 
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Sonic Angel Knight
Guess @Cyan was the only one who thought about a death note, until he mentioned it, I didn't think of it, but that would be interesting to know if there was a note left before it. Some people do that, so just a thought. :unsure:
 
CheatFreak47
Sorry for your loss, that's quite a sudden tragedy to happen out of the blue like that.

I only ask that you don't blame yourself for anything, the way people cope with their prolonged emotional distress, whatever the cause, is often anything but logical, let alone predictable for that matter.
 
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Quantumcat
So this is the story.

She was feeling really down and suicidal. So she got herself to hospital. But later, no one was watching her and she got out somehow (of a supposedly locked-down mental ward) and got to the lake (she would have had to take a bus) and jumped off the bridge. A young man pulled her out and gave her CPR. She was on life support for two days but it was too late. The hospital only called her mother to tell her she left the hospital after the person at the lake called her to tell her what happened (using her phone). Her mother is going to start an investigation to find out what happened - what time she left, how she got out, and how she got to the lake.
 
Glyptofane
I've been through this twice. It may be easier said than done, but try not to blame yourself or think about what you could have done differently to prevent it. It sounds sad, but eventually days will pass where you will no longer think about it.
 
MassExplosion213
@Quantumcat, I'm sorry to hear this. If you need someone to talk to, you can message me here, on Discord at @MassExplosion213#7253, or, if need be, I can give you my phone number in PM. I know this stuff can be rough, had one of my own friends take their life a few years ago now.
 
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Hells Malice
My condolences. :sad: It's really hard to lose a friend to suicide because you always wonder all sorts of things. But don't blame yourself, it's very likely the problems were just too deep. I'm sure just being her friend helped a lot, and brought joy to her life.
The worst part of suicide is that it's often very sudden, and very surprising. Stay strong and know that you were more than likely a positive in he life that ended up extending it.
 

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