Well, you know, you gotta do what you gotta do. If you are having some kind of psychotic thing going on, you really should seek help, if that's even possible for you. Lord knows it isn't possible for me, which is a shame if you knew the skeletons in my closet, but I try not to let that bleed through on the forums, though it inevitably does sometimes. We are all only human, after all.
As for lilysypha, I'm gonna have to defend her here. She is one of the most rational people I've encountered on these forums and if she has a problem with you, then there is truly a problem. Please don't berate her for her ability to be rational and and her exceptional ability to recognize that irrationality when it arises. Try to see her as a voice of reason and reflect on what she may have said to you to make yourself a better person.....at least as you project yourself on forums. Whether she realizes it or not, she has given me a different insight into myself that I had not considered before. Regardless of how abrasive her comments might have been, she made perfect sense in what she said. I really respect that.
You yourself have recognized the error of your ways, whether it was someone else who pointed it out or you noticed it yourself. You don't have to leave GBAtemp to fix your error. Just think before you post and try to understand how your posts can affect other members. Even I forget that sometimes. I can be quite the SOB sometimes, I know that. Who knows, maybe if you talk your issues out, you can alleviate many of the issues you are having. Sometimes just talking about stuff, and listening to what people say about it, can help a lot. You'd be surprised at what the words of just one person can do for your well-being. lilysypha has done that for me, whether she realizes it or not.
Instead of just quitting GBAtemp in disgust or shame, try to reflect on some of the things you may regret having said in the past and attempt to change your ways. You might just be surprised in how the community will change their opinion of you and accept you into the fold.
We only see what you say here on the forums, not what you do in real life. If you guard what you say, and keep your troubled feelings to yourself and think about how your words can affect other people, you may actually come to find that you actually have many friends here that think the same as you.
I'll be honest, I don't really know you, but I don't look at who's posting what when I read through threads, that's just my "blind justice" way of existing. If I ever offended you. I'm truly sorry. I'm trying to help you now in the only way I can, by being as blindly objective as I can. No matter how many people have hated on things you may have said, there are always those who agree with your opinions. Try to align yourself with those people who agreed with you instead of focusing on the negative things the haters have said.
I'm all for letting bygones be bygones. Don't leave based on some perceived notion that everyone hates you. I don't hate you. You can always project yourself as a better person than you actually are, I do it all the time, so can you.
Keep in mind that GBAtemp is a community of gamers, not doctors or psychiatrists or deep-thought scientist, just gamers. Keep your posts light-natured and fun and you will have a lot better time here, I promise you.