ahh dang... soft bricked it.
I removed AutoRCM, found my 4.0.1 or 4.1.0 nandump and boot0 and boot1 dumps, I had to combine all my rawnand.bin 1-14 into one super nand on a exFAT SDcard, installed the boo0 and boot1 followed by the rawnand.bin
I can still boot into hekate soo... just no idea...