Why I'm not active.

So, some of you might have been wondering why I'm not active as much.

Well, its because I been trying to find something I can do that will at least change the way people look at me.

But I'm failing. I tried to code, I tried to draw, I even tried to just use RPG maker but I suck at these things.

I even tried to help a Minecraft Pocket Edition server but got IP banned for no reason.

I'm trying to change as I am very weird in school and get in trouble a lot because of my ADHD.

In fact this was one of the reasons of why I stared Solar Team.

But I just keep failing and failing.

I'm a worthless sack of shit and don't belong to be in this forum.

Which is why I'm thinking of leaving.

I'll just be a weird hyper stupid kid that can't do anything fucking right.

I used to have friends until a lot of fucking drama happened.

Why? It was because of me.

The only thing I'm good at is just playing ace attorney. That s fucking it.

But if you want me to stay.

Find me something that can make me not worthless and I'll stay.

But until then I'll be reading the comments as I slowly fade away from this forum.

So,

Bye.

Comments

Because you can't quote on blog posts, I'll just get to the point (or someone summon tj_cool to add this feature)

I have seen some stuff in the comments I have to disagree with (based on my personal experience).
  1. I started learning HTML myself at the age of 8 (not trying to show off, but this is the truth) with the help of inspect element and Google. And it took me 1-2 month to be able to create webites from scratch, with some basic level of CSS. After that I learned JavaScript, and VisualBasic:wtf:, then I (not that) slowly crawled up on the programming, scripting, and markup languages. *line break* I think you should start with HTML and CSS, so your mind could get used to some terms like "syntax", and "language shema". After you are able to create websites from scratch, I suggest to continue to a basic level of JavaScript, then go to PHP, because it's web related, and has a somewhat easy syntax. If you want some help regarding the learning tree, PM me ;)
  2. I have AD(H)D too (saying hyperactive on me is like saying Sanic on a dead snail), and suprisingly I can code the best in the whole school (including teacher (I'm not trying to make you sad, just so you know, that you could become even better than me! (look at TerraInveditThreedee... it's a messy shit))). And to be honest, it can help in most cases. If you can get your brain to get into (how I call it) "ADD relaxed state", your programming efficiency should increase. Okay, to be fair, if you find a bug, (for me) ADD can make it a pain to find it, sometimes can make finding a small bug last even 6hrs! I'm not trying to scare you away, just sayin'
  3. You should start learning programming ASAP, while your brain behaves like a knowledge-sponge! In my experience, programming can increase your problem solving and mathematical skills, and vice-versa.
Again, I'm not trying to show off, or scare you off, I'm just showing an example, that what could you do.
Also, I didn't mention, but what do you think, how many trial-and-error took me some stuff to make? Some of my private/public projects took months to develop a little, while I finished some in a week.
Also, I hate how the word "learning" is directly connected to schools. I hate how schools work, because it's very inefficient, and contains many useless shit. But learning (especially when YOU do it by EXPERIMENTING) can be very fun, and interesting. Just start with "inspect element" on a somewhat basic website, and try to derp around with the values (which is btw how babies learn how to use their arms and legs, by swinging them "mindlessly" :P), and I think you'll eventually figure out how stuff works, in a (somewhat) fun way.

Also, if you don't know where to start, PM me, I'll be happy to spread my knowledge to everyone :D
 
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I, myself, do Computer Science as a GCSE at school at the moment, and we are currently learning Python. (We're learning SQL code next year, apparently...)
Oh snap, over here we' learned Visual Basic and that's it.
In September i'll go to college where we'll learn C and stuff like that.
 
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Oh snap, over here we' learned Visual Basic and that's it.
In September i'll go to college where we'll learn C and stuff like that.


Freakin' lucky, dude!! :wink:
We would never be able to do something like VB or C coding... ever! :C
 
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For all you people saying that he shouldn't learn to program because he's 11, I learnt my first programming language when I was 10 (BASIC) and proceeded to write progressively more complicated programs until I got to where I am today. Just because you're young doesn't mean you can't accomplish things. I'm 12 and I can program in several different languages. Programming is pretty easy once you get the hang of it. Its also a great real world skill for when you want a job. If you just put your mind to it, you can accomplish anything. Good luck! I'd be happy to help if you need any! :)
 
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@Jacklack3 by admitting that you are in fact 11 you have put me in a difficult position. You are in fact breaking the age restrictions we have in place by being here. Now I do not want to ban you and make you more upset than you already are but this blog of yours is an example of why we do not approve of children as young as you being members here. You are simply not emotionally mature enough to be on forums like these unsupervised and I am now concerned that being here could be detrimental to you.

To be a valuable and good member here you do not need to be skilled in things like coding, art or anything else in particular. You just need to respect the rules and your fellow members and join in on discussions when you think you have something to contribute. And what you contribute does not need to be profound in any way it can just be your opinion. You say you are not good at this or that or whatever, well no shit, you are 11, none of us were particularly skilled at anything when we were at that age either. You are in a developmental period of your life and your skills will surface with time.

So please try and relax and do not put pressure on yourself over nothing, you do not owe anybody on the internet anything. I know being popular on forums and other online places may seem like a big deal to you now but in reality they mean very little. When you are older you will realize that, so just chill out and try to have some fun and don't stress yourself over nothing.
 
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Don't fall into the self-worth trap, it just gets you more and more depressed the further down you go. Just chill out and go through school, there was never any need for any of this to begin with at that age for anyone.
 
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When I was 11 I did not even know how to swim or ride a bike until somebody pushed me into a river/down a mountain.......So my point is that when you jump and you gotta deploy your parachute in life......then you deploy your parachute then. There is no sense in trying to deploy it before you jump m8.
 
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I'm 13 and I'm learning C++, it's pretty ok in terms of difficulty
Try that
 
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When I was 11 I did not even know how to swim or ride a bike until somebody pushed me into a river/down a mountain.......So my point is that when you jump and you gotta deploy your parachute in life......then you deploy your parachute then. There is no sense in trying to deploy it before you jump m8.
Thinking about it, I probably would've never had started to actually use and remember bits and pieces of Perl if it weren't for the lack of a proper way to inject samples back into VOCALOID voicebanks.
 
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Sorry :( But if you want, you can write a wall of text just like me to encourage Jacklack even more!
 
"Learning coding at 11 would be like learning law at 14.........."

I learned GML and Javascript when I was 10 :P
Forgot all of it but I did.
 
Golly, seeing this really makes me wonder... When I was eleven, I didn't really care about computers that much... Because when I was 11 I was busy making friends and being a kid, not trying to learn code or get in internet forums...
Like other members said, your brain is yet to be complete as well as your logical thinking, and in that age until you're 14 or similar, you shoudn't classify yourself as a failure, because let's face it, until you're 14 neither your body or your mind will be ready for any deep challange, not even hardcore programming :P.
Just stay calm and have a normal life(like every other kid) until you age, and then you will learn your tallent. I only became a computer fanatic when I was around 13, so... yeah, don't waste your brain in this kind of drama :D , and when you're ready, you'll see it will be easier and you'll suceed :)
 
Thanks guys, I'm trying to make cool stuff now.

Currently back on the server I got banned on and made a mcdonalds!
 
Nobody understands what it's like to actually hate yourself unless they've lived with it. Now that I made it through my own self hatred (after getting SURGERY to correct a mystery breathing issue causing me constant stress) I can look back and congratulate myself. I didn't act upon my constant suicidal thoughts, I turned the hatred I had for others upon myself, I never hurt others. I think it's actually EXTREMELY considerate of you to hate YOURSELF rather than thrust blame at those around you. HOWEVER, the self hatred is your enemy. You are managing it in a way that is CONSIDERATE of those around you, but make no mistake this hatred is your enemy.
 
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