This year has not been going so well for me....and I know in some parts of the world people have it worse right now. That's terrible and if I could change something about it...I would. But this is just my own personal blog so it's about my problems. Ok. 
A few weeks ago I had written down the whole story here in a blog post...and I thought I saved it . But when it was gone I did not feel like rewriting it again. Yes...it was that long! But besides long it was also very emotional...but I still want to at least actually post a few things about what happened. Since it's also the reason I have mostly disappeared from here in the last few months.
The short version of my huge planned post is this: I have lost both my cat's in January with less than 12 days between them! This had such an emotional impact that I was unable to think, concentrate or even work! The first few weeks were the worst and I got support from work to process this loss. But concentration was ultra low, and it still is, so I am still not 100% over it and still getting help. And I could not go to friends and family because of covid there!!! And because of some stupid reason I had to show up on location for work, while the norm is "work-from-home", and guess what! I got covid! At the same time my mum got hospitalized and put in strict quarantine and I was unable to visit her! (she is home and mostly ok now)
It took me nearly three weeks to mostly recover from the worst symptoms...but overall it could have been far worse! No issues breathing...but normal flu and cold symptoms and extreme tiredness! And especially getting tired easily after doing something that looks like nothing is still haunting me! Put that on top of the issues with focus and concentration and you have nice mix of not having the energy to get things done!!!
While I could go into far more depth about everything....I think this covers the basic idea of understanding that my attention was not on any of my projects the last few months. Even with the original post gone...just writing it down helped me a lot in processing it. many tears during writing that one...but it might have been just what I needed. And I actually still have some sort of copy....because I send a "video screenshot" of how long it was getting to a friend.
And off course I still miss my dear cats Minousche and Zelda almost daily...at least some part of the pain got less. But I will always remember them!
2005-2022
Thanks for your time
A few weeks ago I had written down the whole story here in a blog post...and I thought I saved it . But when it was gone I did not feel like rewriting it again. Yes...it was that long! But besides long it was also very emotional...but I still want to at least actually post a few things about what happened. Since it's also the reason I have mostly disappeared from here in the last few months.
The short version of my huge planned post is this: I have lost both my cat's in January with less than 12 days between them! This had such an emotional impact that I was unable to think, concentrate or even work! The first few weeks were the worst and I got support from work to process this loss. But concentration was ultra low, and it still is, so I am still not 100% over it and still getting help. And I could not go to friends and family because of covid there!!! And because of some stupid reason I had to show up on location for work, while the norm is "work-from-home", and guess what! I got covid! At the same time my mum got hospitalized and put in strict quarantine and I was unable to visit her! (she is home and mostly ok now)
It took me nearly three weeks to mostly recover from the worst symptoms...but overall it could have been far worse! No issues breathing...but normal flu and cold symptoms and extreme tiredness! And especially getting tired easily after doing something that looks like nothing is still haunting me! Put that on top of the issues with focus and concentration and you have nice mix of not having the energy to get things done!!!
While I could go into far more depth about everything....I think this covers the basic idea of understanding that my attention was not on any of my projects the last few months. Even with the original post gone...just writing it down helped me a lot in processing it. many tears during writing that one...but it might have been just what I needed. And I actually still have some sort of copy....because I send a "video screenshot" of how long it was getting to a friend.
And off course I still miss my dear cats Minousche and Zelda almost daily...at least some part of the pain got less. But I will always remember them!
2005-2022
Thanks for your time
I was gonna say that. lol