No one likes me...

The truth is, nobody likes me. I try to fit-in wherever I go, but all I do is drive most people away. I am treated differently than most others, because I am different. People just don't like being around me. Several people call me a fat-ass and a retarded fuck. Some tell me to go die, some tell me I am an accident. I don't get bullied, but that's because there is sometimes an adult around to keep that from happening.

I have no true friends. There are a few people I get to hang out with, we play outside, we play video games, but they also treat me differently.

I am actually quite a depressed person. There are many days that I wish I did not exist. I feel there is no purpose in my life, but to drive others away.

I show few emotions, and I don't share much about myself with others. Everyone avoids me, so I can never open up to anyone.

I've just been venting this whole time... I'm sure none of you care...
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Are you 14 / 15 yo ?
was the same for me then, i changed, people changed and now i'm one of the most social guy you can think of
if you want i can give you consoling free succ ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
 
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Wow, sounds just like me when I was a teenager. I don't have any great advice to be honest. If you have no true friends, look outside your normal areas. Join a club, or look for a different place to socialise, somewhere you'd think that you could make a connection. It isn't a good idea to make close friends with people in your school, those friendships never last long term, it's easier to separate school and social.

I was bullied so much in school that I developed mental problems, but if it's not happening for you, it's definitely a good thing. Just don't make yourself a target.

If you're depressed, I can't stress it more that you need to go and find help. Depression breeds more negative emotions - Regret, disdain, jealousy, fear, paranoia, hate. See a doctor, counselor, psychiatrist, somebody that you can speak to.
 
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Alot of people go through things like this. In middle and Highschool, i was bullied constantly because of my Aspergers. It was not easy getting by. I had my parents to help but i understand that's not the same case for a lot of people. But from my experience, i can say this. When i entered college and started to work on my major, i got connected with a bunch of people because we relied on one another to get by. I rely on several people in college and they rely on me. Just hang in there. It will get better.
 
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I feel invisible. I'm not bullied or rejected.. But I'm not accepted or acknowledged either. It's actually depressing.
 
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i know how you feel, about friends, just the internet ones
for real, i want to help but i really don't know how i'm sorry, i just wish people start to like you more

Alkéryn
wuuuut? .-.
 
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Sometimes people are dealt an unlucky hand at life. Accept the things you can't change and seek happiness until you find it. I'm sure people exist that you can truly be good friends with. Whether you see it as a worthy struggle to find them is something only you know. Maybe you could become better friends with your current friends, think about it and see if its possible.
 
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Hang in there buddy, depression is a way of life for me and I'm probably more than twice your age. Just saying that there is ways of dealing with it without doing something stupid.
 
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I know you don't know anyone on this site personally, but you are a Temper! You are apart of this community and we will root for you all the way. Ya there are some nasty trolls on this site but screw them. Just hang in there. Life get's better. Trust me.
 
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Okay, least i got bullied so it was worst for me... no wait, being told that making friends is difficult cause i have aspergers is worst.... no wait, there is worst. But you know what, people change, I will, you will, we all will and things will not ever be the same. Is a time in life, and that time like everything else will pass and become different.

The most important question is how you handle it, how you "Survive" until the change happens, what will you do? You can't control much about the world but you always can control yourself. Speaking from someone who been there, is not easy, nothing here is simple and is all just a bit of influence on luck. Not everyone is lucky and some more worst than others. You just need to be at the right place at the right time, that is all i can say to be honest cause is usually how stuff proceed.
 
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It'll get better as you get older, it could be the area you live in too. When I was 12 my family and I lived in an area where people constantly picked on me and bullied me. We moved to a different area a year later and it got a little better but not really. It wasn't until I was a junior in high school that most people stopped doing it. As an adult I've ran into a few of my bullies when I was a child and they were all friendly and wanted to hang out with me but I've refused to give them the time of day. Regardless, things will get easier when you get older. It could be the type of people you associate yourself with, try hanging out with different clicks and see where it goes.
 
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"I don't get bullied"

Dude, what you just described is bullying, it's just that schools do fuck all for education and prevention past "Hey don't hit people or they'll cry"
 
I care JFlare. I grew up really awkward (36 now) and as you get older you learn to accept that the world isn't fair and there's a LOT of assholes out there. What I also learned is it's not my job to make other people like me, and as a result fell in with a few people that were just as awkward as me and with those friends, I don't have to pretend to be something I'm not to be liked.

You'll find your squad, for the time being focus on skills that will help you take care of yourself later in life and figure out what you want to do. Once you figure out your goals you can throw your passion into them and meet other like-minded people in your free time or even make friends where you work.

Being 15 sucks for everyone, only difference is the douchebags treating you shitty are just putting up a good front and bouncing their negativity off of you to make themselves feel better. The fact that you aren't doing this to other people in your age bracket shows how much more empathetic and mature you are, which already puts you ahead of the game.

Just keep being you bro, fuck the haters.
 
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I'm about a year older than you. I've been through some of the emotions you must be feeling right now.

These feelings you have, they don't dictate your life. You're in high school like I am, it's alright to feel this way. A lot of people feel like this, more than you might think. But you have so many more things to do in this world, and so many more people to meet. You will meet people on your journey who will love you and who you will love. Let me also tell you, if you need to cry, cry. Just let everything out. Sometimes in this life, you have to keep your head down and push on forward, but never trap your emotions inside. Your feelings make you who you are, and it's best not to run from them, because while you can be fast, they have more stamina. And I promise you, after you're done with all this, you will be much stronger and all the better for it.

What I want to tell you is to keep going. Join a new club! If you can, find somewhere you think might have like-minded people. Also, talk to an adult such as your school counselor. I would say definitely do this and tell them how you're feeling. They can probably give you good guidance.

Hey, please don't hesitate to PM me, my man! I'd love to talk and get to know you C:
 
Talk to your parents and/or get professional help. The professional help part would likely help the most.

As much as it's nice to get support from people here or anywhere else on the internet, it won't help you as much as actually talking about it.

There's too many questions you'd need to answer to even get to a point where anyone can help you.
Like why do you think/know that people treat you differently then others?
Why are you shutting off your emotions, and which ones are you talking about?

And @HaloEliteLegend that's a dangerous thing to say; "it passes". It passed for you, it passes for others, it doesn't always pass for everyone and telling them to wait for it to pass is destructive if it won't pass and you're just idly waiting. It is not always that simple.

But anyway, it does sound like typical high school teen problems, but if it's really getting to you, get help.
 

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