Hello people~
This is probably my first 'serious' blog (the others being about post count and an entertaining episode about my parents).
It happens to be that driving isn't my expertise; no matter how hard I try or how much I practice, I take a whole lot more time than others to get better. To make things worse, I can't seem to cope effectively with nervousness. So yesterday and today, I had some driving lessons in my school's parking lot, involving 10 people (including myself). We were divided into five groups of two people, each group in a car to practice backing, parallel parking, etc. After an hour, your partner and you are supposed to switch places.
As terrible as I am, I didn't fare well on the first day (don't want to get into details, but lets just say that I couldn't even start the car lol). I don't know if that was the cause of it, but today (the second day of training), around half of the ten people started spontaneously laughing, doing hand gestures, stopping in front of me, etc. while I drove. Also, there's one portion that only one car is (supposed) to be allowed in at once, but one group had the nerve to barge into my session, causing me to leave half-way to prevent any problematic situation. I know some of you guys are going to tell me to get over it or not worry about it, but it's just hard for me. I became even more nervous, in which I cannot cope with. I was in the verge of crying (no lies). I'm kinda faint-hearted and emotionally weak. T^T
And now, what makes it eminent that all of it was planned beforehand, was the fact that they stopped laughing when my partner and I switched places. They were solely laughing at me, annoying me, deteriorating my self-consciousness, and making me nervous. But most importantly, I was terribly upset at how they became so cruel and heartless over such a small thing as driving. What makes me feel even worse is that my partner was also getting stressed over it, and it was all because of me...
To whomever was mindful and generous enough to not participate in it, I anonymously thank you through the Internet. May God bless you people.
This is probably my first 'serious' blog (the others being about post count and an entertaining episode about my parents).
It happens to be that driving isn't my expertise; no matter how hard I try or how much I practice, I take a whole lot more time than others to get better. To make things worse, I can't seem to cope effectively with nervousness. So yesterday and today, I had some driving lessons in my school's parking lot, involving 10 people (including myself). We were divided into five groups of two people, each group in a car to practice backing, parallel parking, etc. After an hour, your partner and you are supposed to switch places.
As terrible as I am, I didn't fare well on the first day (don't want to get into details, but lets just say that I couldn't even start the car lol). I don't know if that was the cause of it, but today (the second day of training), around half of the ten people started spontaneously laughing, doing hand gestures, stopping in front of me, etc. while I drove. Also, there's one portion that only one car is (supposed) to be allowed in at once, but one group had the nerve to barge into my session, causing me to leave half-way to prevent any problematic situation. I know some of you guys are going to tell me to get over it or not worry about it, but it's just hard for me. I became even more nervous, in which I cannot cope with. I was in the verge of crying (no lies). I'm kinda faint-hearted and emotionally weak. T^T
And now, what makes it eminent that all of it was planned beforehand, was the fact that they stopped laughing when my partner and I switched places. They were solely laughing at me, annoying me, deteriorating my self-consciousness, and making me nervous. But most importantly, I was terribly upset at how they became so cruel and heartless over such a small thing as driving. What makes me feel even worse is that my partner was also getting stressed over it, and it was all because of me...
To whomever was mindful and generous enough to not participate in it, I anonymously thank you through the Internet. May God bless you people.
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