further apology

So um... I haven't been doing that well recently, I've been struggling anxiety for a little while now and I just wanted to apologize for my behavior.
I know it hurts my friends when I say the things I do about myself, but I also know that I must seem ungrateful when I doubt myself because they have done so much for me in the way of validation and just being awesome friends in general~ and they're probably wondering what they did that was so special, but really they didn't have to even do anything, the fact that they let me be their friends is just awesome to me.
I want to apologize for hanging around you guys all the time, and I hope I haven't hurt any of you by the things I've said.
I know it's kinda hard to really show people how you feel over the internet, but my friends, you are the absolute best and I love all of you.
that's it lol
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I know the feel. Ive been going through hell with the death of the closest person in my life, at the young age of 32. You don't have to apologize. Youve been great and you are great. You bring such an amazing impact on this world, whether its to friends, internet buds, strangers, etc. You're absolutely amazing. Dont let ANYONE tell you otherwise! You are worth everything and you are amazing!:)
 
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Don't sweat it dude, in my eyes you haven't really done anything to warrant giving out an apology like that :0 Just keep on truckin'
 
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This is completely off topic, but @Josshy0125...wait, it isn't working? Let's see here...

*sees he got his ass banned*

If you just happen to read this, all I have to say is...

 
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would like to respond to this, recommend trying out the bible, and christanity. it's what's been helping me out. i have high bipolar depression, and getting into christanity, reading the bible (now, because i visited my grandparents, and he advised me to study the bible -so i am doing so, late, i was more on learning of the bible through what my brother would say because he read it -saw him doing so as well, so he knew more than i did. i knew what was wrong and right, simple things and some parts of the bible as well) has helped me out allot. i first, of course, i had my struggles still with my depression over the years of getting into christanity in whole, but it got better because over those years of my anxiety and depression i would think positively, know that life has meaning, know why i exist and know that i am loved. It's honestly me controlling it, and getting more help from the bible itself. just reading it, really get's you into it in a good way.

it's why i advise people with depression, anxiety, thoughts of suicide and negative stuff to read the bible. it helps more than anything, those who say; oh i read the bible and it didn't help me out at all -um it's because you're not reading it correctly. your reading it to get away from the problems that you have, instead you should read it because you care, you have a love for it. once you realize those important factors, reading the bible, from time to time, reading the word of god -it does help out. shoot try out for christianity, have any questions about it or want to learn the difference between a real christanian and a lukewarm -i would gladly help you out. but this is if you want to. i am giving you my best advice that i got. now self doubt -it's funny because it's in the bible, the king james one (i do recommend you reading this one if you do care to start reading it) if you go to the last few pages it has a page where it states;

'Gods Answers to Mans Concerns'

it's very helpful because it has topics on questions people want answers to like helpful ones, such as; adding in christ (gives the verse and where to find it in the bible), afflictions, anger, answered prayer(which allot of people believe that they're prayers aren't answered or god doesn't hear them -no he does hear you), backsliding, christs love, contentment, courage, divine, comfort, divine deliverance, divine guidance, divine power, and the one that is doubt which is what you are feeling right now, and i want to urge that doubt isn't bad, it's actually good -people that continue to push the narrative of pure positivity always push away self-doubt/ and doubt itself which you shouldn't. because without self-doubt, those geniuses that we all know wouldn't have gotten to the position they ended up being. everyone has self-doubt, and it's nothing bad -it's something good, that pushes you to do the things that you think you cannot accomplish. like hard tasks, and i am not gonna push the positive narrative on you and tell you everything is gonna be fine, your gonna do it, your gonna succeed -sorry to say but you won't, you will have days in where doubt will lead you to either two routes; success on your project or no success at all and that is okay. it's fine, you tried your best, and you did what you could. should be happy, and accept that it didn't happen like the way you wanted it to -it's okay.

now onto doubt, the bible doesn't talk about self-doubt because it's not important but he does talk about doubt in believing in the faith. the reason why he doesn't have self-doubt on here, and why it's not important, because it's meh, nothing horrible to have -your soul is more important, of course, your health, and etc. that whole self-doubt is made by that whole; i want to succeed etc, -god doesn't care for that, he cares more about your life -soul. if you're okay. finally you don't need to apologize for something like that. you can hang around your friends as much as you can, do know that it is also okay to speak up. now enjoy my paragraph :D lol
 
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I did enjoy your paragraph @HinaNaru Cutie ... because I am a Christian yes, it really does help me to know that God loves me more than any human can, not only that but that Jesus would willingly be brutally tortured so that he could have me forever o.o
but I haven't been relying on him as much and as you see it has lead to this ;w;
Thank you so much friend, I really needed this :3
 
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@MicmasH_W aw that's great that you're a christian, aw hon you really do need to go back to relying on him -i know you know this; that he does help out allot. especially reading the bible <3.

of course, you're welcome <3!! i am glad that i helped out.
 
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I know it, I’m ashamed but, I’m motivated, I’ve been missing something and I’m finally realizing I’ve just been so distracted and worried instead of focusing on the lord... I can’t thank you enough
 
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