Am I normal?

What makes me wonder?

Let me explain who I am..

I am Raestloz(not the real name), an 18 years old college student (my birthday was 15th this month), and is quite healthy.

I'm skinny, not like what women consider skinny, but skinny at the point I can see my veins and the shape of my bones pretty clearly.

I'm quite intelligent, but not to the point women will stick around me, I'm average at best, average as in "medium-high" in security measurements

I'm not good with arts, although I respect it a lot

I like military things.

My face is not that good, thanks to being skinny, although naturally, I'm kinda good-looking, if I'm not skinny

I'm not a muscle guy

I know no fighting skills

I'm not cool, I'm "cold", not to the extent ignoring people, but I don't like starting useless conversation, and I don't like starting conv. with somebody I don't know, even if they know me.

I'm a straightforward guy usually, If I do go somewhere, I actually have something to do there, once I do what I have to, I leave that place at once. Still about that, I usually blurt everything that comes to mind, rash or not, however, there're several cases where I actually think before talking

I slouch, although I don't usually realize it, but somehow my mom said it's improving, and I do feel I'm an inch taller, 2 inches when I actually straighten my body

I'm not somebody who would like to threaten somebody else, in other words, a peace-loving person, don't like starting fights, don't like involved in fights, don't want to go near people who likes to fight

I'v got self-consciousness fo most things, tahnks to being raised in a normal family with normal economy for the past 7 years, another 11 years? kinda por but we managed somehow

I dont like vegetables and seafood, in other words, I'm a carnivore literally

I'm not funny at all, thanks to being emotionless most of the time

I'm a God-fearing person, and believes in 4 religions....

I'm not a social person, however, I trust my best friends with my heart, never will I betray, never will I be betrayed

I've never been in an outstanding situation

I do like ecchi stuff

I'm not from a rich family

I do like games, like it VERY MUCH even

I like mangas just recently, and is crazy about it right now

I'm wearing glasses, and they're not clear anymore

I'm not a fashionista

I have no athletic ability

I'm tall, almost 2 metres high (190 cm) and skiny, which makes me TOO tall...

I like Japan culture very much, and adore Americans, especially their monotonic and regular lifestyle

I've got little, if not no, female friends

So, what is it that I'm ranting about?
Why do I ask I'm normal or not?

Simple:
My friend asked: "Hey, do you like girls at all?"

"What makes you say that?" I asked back, and he said "Well, it's just that you have no reaction at all towards girls... and I never actually see you hanging out with a girl"

"True..." I said, deep in my heart
I've never felt any feelings towards girls, no matter how beautiful they are. I do adore them, at the point of saying "Look, that girl's a beauty", but nothing more, I don't lust for them, neither do I fantasize about seeing them naked, or staring at their chest of thighs, or thinking about me going out with them

Sure, sometimes I think about "what if I'm popular?" But I never actually think about "popular with who?" and when I think about it, it's blank......

I've looked at many beautiful girls, yet I don't feel like "oh, if only I can reach them" the only thought that crossed my mind is a process of identifying the creature that is in my line of vision, and then with the GPU attached to my brain visualize its shape, what it is wearing, the face, and that's that, no ecchi thoughts come and spend some time

Sure, I got aroused when I saw those xxx vidoes, but that's that, should the video over, so does the xxx mind inside my brain

I've got some male friends, and I gotta say this to you: I'm NOT a gay.

And I think again... if have no affection towards girls, am I normal? Am I a male? Or just a being with male physique but neutral heart?

What will become of my family's line? Will it end on me just like Leonardo da Vinci or Michaelangelo?

Really... what am I??

All my friends, no matter who, AT LEAST went crazy about girls, but when they talk about topics like that, I'm not really interested. And most of them has at least got a girlfriend, once... only I being the last one left behind... I wonder why?

What happened?

If any of you guys or gals got annoyed by this rant, then sorry for ranting.....

Comments

xcalibur
[quote name='UltraMagnus' post='1715782' date='Jan 19 2009, 11:00 AM']hmm........ interesting........

well, the is no such thing as normal, just levels of abnormality.

it sounds like you could be asexual, which is a little odd, but apparently about 1% of the population is too, so you are definitely not alone. in fact the are whole communities and forums of asexuals on the internet.

by how you describe your emotionlessness, it could be you have "Schizoid personality disorder" another symptom of which is asexuality. now, although it is called a disorder (which is a word used in psychology a lot), many people live with it, and very few seek treatment as most do not even view it as a problem, some even view it as an advantage of sorts.[/quote]

Give wikipedia a rest. You're not dr. phil enough to make such outrageous diagnoses over the internet based on a persons description of himself when he's feeling a bit down.
 
U
[quote name='Xcalibur' post='1715958' date='Jan 19 2009, 01:31 PM'][quote name='UltraMagnus' post='1715782' date='Jan 19 2009, 11:00 AM']hmm........ interesting........

well, the is no such thing as normal, just levels of abnormality.

it sounds like you could be asexual, which is a little odd, but apparently about 1% of the population is too, so you are definitely not alone. in fact the are whole communities and forums of asexuals on the internet.

by how you describe your emotionlessness, it could be you have "Schizoid personality disorder" another symptom of which is asexuality. now, although it is called a disorder (which is a word used in psychology a lot), many people live with it, and very few seek treatment as most do not even view it as a problem, some even view it as an advantage of sorts.[/quote]

Give wikipedia a rest. You're not dr. phil enough to make such outrageous diagnoses over the internet based on a persons description of himself when he's feeling a bit down.
[/quote]

It was merely a suggestion that the op take a look at it and decide for himself really. psychology is just a hobby of mine, however I assure you I have read texts other than wikipedia. of course a accurate diagnosis is impossible over the internet and would require differential diagnosis by someone qualified.

and who is "Dr. Phil"?
 
D
[quote name='UltraMagnus' post='1716014' date='Jan 19 2009, 03:19 PM'][...] and who is "Dr. Phil"?[/quote]
You best be trollin' boy!
 
R
He might not be, who's Dr. Phil? :wtf: is he a famous comedy character or what?

I... am not emotionless to the point I can't feel pain or stuff, I'm emotionless as in I can't find something funny in knowingly saying stupid and lowly stuff such as this situation:

My teacher: "So, between this four countries: England, Netherlands, Spain, and Portuguese, which of them was defeated first when they battle over Indonesia?"

Some stupid scum: "Indonesia ma'am!" :lol:
The whole class: *laughs out, not loudly*
me: "what the fuck is wrong with this guy? Can't he be a bit intelligent?" :glare:

And stuff like that, I can, however, feel the need to laugh should it really is funny...

I can feel I'm a geek, not really the type with which women will flock around me, but hey... who the fuck cares? If somebody's really for me out there, she'll surely accpet me the way I am, the weak geek

At least that's what kept me sane for the past years, since I can feel that my female friends look at me like those complementary characters that got no face in a comic... :unsure:
 
Canonbeat234
[quote name='Raestloz' post='1714736' date='Jan 18 2009, 12:02 PM']
I wouldn't joke with the word 'fetish' if I were you, my father and mother are very distant to me because of it. So I'm very stern about the subject.
Click to expand...
I wasn't joking, was I joking about that rant in the first post? Nope... I'm serious about that..

I like the plots, it's kind of like "I like school-life stories" does that mean I'm a school-uniform fetish? Nope I think, it's like that

Anyway, I'm no fetish in my conclusion, so let's put this word's conversation to an end
[/quote]

Fine, but in all you isn't weird. You just don't know what to do with yourself eventually you will do something productive inside of worrying about yourself.
 
Wok247
Well sound quite normal to me.
Nobody ist he same.
Women always make some "runaway" reflex to me.
You are very long and not fat (maybe you should eat more).
The only :creep part is ecchi and you have not muscle and like military.

:edit upps forgot the " : " at creep! Well here it is : " : "
 
Isaiah
I'm just like you except im fattish (not to the extent where my shirt is tight and my stomach doesn't bulge out) and believe inn christianity :)
 

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