Well... I have some problems too.
Some will just point out at my age and say "You don't have anything to think about like me." but basically they don't understand. I sometimes experience mental breakdowns, I sometimes just feel suicidal. Yet, I try to show that nothing is wrong with me, being falsely cheerful.
Gaming makes me forget about these things. Anime also. Spending good time with my friends. Visiting new places.
Stuff like that just makes me happy. That's why I'm finding new things to spend my time on like for example: My Raspberry Pi project.
Gaming = Bad Grades, yup... Running away from reality helps me relax a bit... but it also has consequences.
Yet some people love to point out flaws in me. That I'm too mean, or that I'm being too self-centered. It's mostly because... I keep everything in myself. It's not probably due to my character? Or is it? I was cheerful when I was 8. But now, I literally want to end myself. That's not being a edgy 14 year old. That's about having a fucking depression!
I wish I could go back to my old self. Cheerful, Social kid which didn't think too much about life. Had alot of dumb and cool ideas with my friends. [I only had one friend which later just decided to stop being my friend...]
Everything got ruined, I feel like everything is failing apart sometimes. I have help of specialist, it kinda helps me. Yet, nothing will really help me.
I'm trying to stay positive, sometimes posting dumb shit and making shitty arguments. Mostly so I can atleast interact with somebody.
Ending this blog post... No questions.
See ya in another blog post.
Some will just point out at my age and say "You don't have anything to think about like me." but basically they don't understand. I sometimes experience mental breakdowns, I sometimes just feel suicidal. Yet, I try to show that nothing is wrong with me, being falsely cheerful.
Gaming makes me forget about these things. Anime also. Spending good time with my friends. Visiting new places.
Stuff like that just makes me happy. That's why I'm finding new things to spend my time on like for example: My Raspberry Pi project.
Gaming = Bad Grades, yup... Running away from reality helps me relax a bit... but it also has consequences.
Yet some people love to point out flaws in me. That I'm too mean, or that I'm being too self-centered. It's mostly because... I keep everything in myself. It's not probably due to my character? Or is it? I was cheerful when I was 8. But now, I literally want to end myself. That's not being a edgy 14 year old. That's about having a fucking depression!
I wish I could go back to my old self. Cheerful, Social kid which didn't think too much about life. Had alot of dumb and cool ideas with my friends. [I only had one friend which later just decided to stop being my friend...]
Everything got ruined, I feel like everything is failing apart sometimes. I have help of specialist, it kinda helps me. Yet, nothing will really help me.
I'm trying to stay positive, sometimes posting dumb shit and making shitty arguments. Mostly so I can atleast interact with somebody.
Ending this blog post... No questions.
See ya in another blog post.
