Hai gaiz.
Its me, I know Im not really that recognizable, cause I dont post much nowadays. (used to post a lot when wii homebrew was stating out, but now, meh)
anyway, this is my first blog post since a while.
So, to start out, Me and my girlfriend is in a long distance relationship. Im in Canada, she's in Philippines, we're both too young to do this, but we do it anyway, just to prove our love for each other.
We've been going for about 11 months now.
In the last 2 weeks, I've been feeling sad and lonely. I've been texting her how I feel, but she doesnt reply. (Its complicated, but she has her reasons.)
anyway, when we had the time to talk, I went apeshit on her.
I told her that I always make her happy and shit, but she acts like she doesnt even care when Im sad. Went apeshit some more. lasted about 2 days.
Then, I tried to forget about all those stuff, and made up with her, so all is fine for about 1 day.
Then I went apeshit again cause she "told" me that she texted her classmates.
Its really irritating for me when she does that because, she can talk, hang out, and all that stuff with her classmates everyday, yet she uses her credits for texting for them. GRR.
Then I told her that Im tired from all these. That I always have to make her happy yet she doesn't really do anything for me. (again, reasons)
I told her that I think Im going to rest for a bit and stuff. And I didnt text her anymore.
But, a few hours later, I texted her again, saying that I think Im good now, and stuff trying to get her to talk to me.
but no replies.
I feel like shit.
I hate it.
Its like, she values and loves her friends more. When she's with them, she forgets all about me.
I know its my fault that we're in this situation now. (I dont usually get apeshit on her, so.. meh)
I just. Dont know what the fuck to do.
I know its a really confusing story, but I just want to let out my feelings for a bit.
I feel so fucking sad. Its like something is pulling me my chest down to my stomach. And My stomach feels empty all the time. I cant focus.
I just dont know. fuck.
Its me, I know Im not really that recognizable, cause I dont post much nowadays. (used to post a lot when wii homebrew was stating out, but now, meh)
anyway, this is my first blog post since a while.
So, to start out, Me and my girlfriend is in a long distance relationship. Im in Canada, she's in Philippines, we're both too young to do this, but we do it anyway, just to prove our love for each other.
We've been going for about 11 months now.
In the last 2 weeks, I've been feeling sad and lonely. I've been texting her how I feel, but she doesnt reply. (Its complicated, but she has her reasons.)
anyway, when we had the time to talk, I went apeshit on her.
I told her that I always make her happy and shit, but she acts like she doesnt even care when Im sad. Went apeshit some more. lasted about 2 days.
Then, I tried to forget about all those stuff, and made up with her, so all is fine for about 1 day.
Then I went apeshit again cause she "told" me that she texted her classmates.
Its really irritating for me when she does that because, she can talk, hang out, and all that stuff with her classmates everyday, yet she uses her credits for texting for them. GRR.
Then I told her that Im tired from all these. That I always have to make her happy yet she doesn't really do anything for me. (again, reasons)
I told her that I think Im going to rest for a bit and stuff. And I didnt text her anymore.
But, a few hours later, I texted her again, saying that I think Im good now, and stuff trying to get her to talk to me.
but no replies.
I feel like shit.
I hate it.
Its like, she values and loves her friends more. When she's with them, she forgets all about me.
I know its my fault that we're in this situation now. (I dont usually get apeshit on her, so.. meh)
I just. Dont know what the fuck to do.
I know its a really confusing story, but I just want to let out my feelings for a bit.
I feel so fucking sad. Its like something is pulling me my chest down to my stomach. And My stomach feels empty all the time. I cant focus.
I just dont know. fuck.