Oh no.........what a §$%&$§ Year this is..... I hope,a free Drink can help you a little,my Friend... Very,very sorry..........
Condolences, friend. I think you expected it by now, but nevertheless it is always a great suffering, the loss of a part of yourself and of a life in common; only time and human, empathic closeness will soothe this pain, now lacerating.