Skills and interest to be proud of? (Moderate reading required!)

Today, I spent some time on youtube watching some vidoes. The thing is some videos have some amazing quality of content that i can't believe, and when i watch it, in my mind, it must be some supernatrual stuff to have excellent knowledge in. Although I acknowledge the videos themself, I am more trying to discuss the content represented in them. The following may not be properly representing what I started to say.

It's a bit nervous to say but, well i watched a video talking about some secrets of some games, the game in question, the ever popular visual novel, Doki Doki Literature Club, which I have not played and probably won't not cause of anything silly, just not too invested in visual novels. This game had some super next level 4th wall breaking secrets that was revealed to me watching it that I won't go too far into detail or we will be here all day. (I'm not acknowledging spoilers since it's been out for a decent number of months... and the video i watched got well over million of views)

All of this is in the POV of me, anyway to continue, the secrets that was uncovered in the video was on some next level content that I wasn't ready for. I'm sure most of you already know about the game and the secrets, but for those who don't, uncovering them took some serious investigation skills, I mean superior ones I don't know both as a common person in real life and hacking/reverse engineer/ decoding/ etc. Basically there was so much secrets that if I didn't know any of this and someone told me "Hey there players, we got some secrets to share with you, our game contains some easter eggs, and we will challenge you players to go and find all of it. First person to find it and send it to me via email will get a huge prize!"

I wouldn't know where to begin, I would probably play the game as basic and casual as I can just hoping and grasping for any clue and never find out anything and then just say weather is worth it or not. No is nothing wrong with that as long as you enjoyed the game. But not all games are fantasy fun even if I wish it was, some developers want to challenge the players with creative ways of making a game, and that's what DDLC was to some people. To me, it's just a new visual novel game to play, to others is the secrets of the universe.

That's how deep the rabbit hole goes in some of these things. Watching people uncover those secrets for doki doki literature club was like watching someone solve the puzzle to that Cancelled silent hills game Kojima was producing, like playing metal gear soild and told me to find the codec number on the back of the case, not knowing they meant the actual game case that has a pic of a codec convocation with the number on it the IN GAME CHARACTERS WAS TALKING ABOUT IN REAL LIFE! No, I'm the guy that if I played the game would have never discovered these things, provided I beat metal gear soild games 1-4 with no problem and no guides either. Remember, I'm a gamer, I can play a game and figure stuff out if it's enough to work with like those games, but probably would never beat Zelda 1 or 2 on nes without a guide because to me that is what these games have in common, too open and too cryptic.

Bottom line, the people who discovered this stuff was professionals, dedicated people who knew what they was doing like
  • Decoding complete garbage gibberish text to readable format
  • Finding hidden message in said gibberesh text to learn new clues that require turning that file into a picture or audio format
  • Looking at a picture and knowing such stuff is a binary code
  • Finding a hidden audio file that is not directly in the game's basic accessibility options Like Sonic 2'S track 10 in sound test that apparently was supposed to be for hidden palace zone that was removed from the game.
  • Discovering hidden meanings behind character actions or context

If you read the spoiler, then you know what kind of stuff I'm talking about, it's crazy to me, but normal to some of you cause you do this all the time, is natural. Obviously I'm making this more than what it is cause that's how I see it. People like me would play the game and miss all of that, while some others would play it and discover "This is a sign, Half-Life 3 is coming in 2018" type stuff, and the whole game was hiding that, again, exaggerating things. The point is there is people out there who are respected for being able to do these kinds of things, I too also respect that stuff. I'm not a fan of Visual Novels so I didn't care too much about the game in general, I saw some people play but that's about it. But this video changes things, does it make me want to play, a little bit but not enough. It's got my interest and attention but not enough to play it. Is just that I can't believe some people are able to do such things. I know I can't. I could yes, if i do dedicate my self time to knowing such things which I don't.

To be a bit personal now, that's where I feel a bit bad that about, I kinda didn't give much thought to this sooner, I kinda feel inferior to some people now. I see people here with homebrew projects, making games and finding exploits and making mods and hacks. I don't really have any skill sets to contribute to any of this, which is more respected and praised than someone who "Just play games cause it's fun for me and amuses me" which yes I am happy about playing games and liking it. But I'm also aware, it's my own fault if I don't know the stuff they do to figure out all that cryptic stuff. If I wanted to do this stuff, I have to try learning it first and then over time I can learn to do something. Now I don't want to do it just to be the first to do this or that, not because I want fame or glory or respect, just as a person who likes video games and play them and don't find any hidden stuff to be able to produce a stable idea for someone else to find interesting like all the game theory channels out there, trying to figure out how zelda games are connected. No I just want to know my games a bit better than the developers don't reveal directly, like the secrets in DDLC or The PT demo or metal gear solid and what not.

The problem here is I probably lack interest... but why? I play video games, I love them, but not enough to make my own, not enough to start learning programming code to create a brand new idea or product all on my own. I watch anime, I like it, not enough to be good at art and draw my own "Original Characters" or Fan art or make my own animations and such. I like technology, but not enough to learn everything I can to build new stuff. I guess my interest are just at a basic level, not too far to become a DYI person, just enough to appreciate others who do it. Had I taken the time to do all this sooner (And yes I know there is still time) then I'm sure someone else would be sounding like I do right now. I be the one contributing stuff and getting appreciation and not sitting there just experiencing it, once again is not anything to be shamed of.

If you skipped to the end of this post just to read the ending because is too long and you couldn't read it (okay I get it, there was a lot I said, sorry I have lot on my mind), just share with me what kind of stuff you are most proud of that you can do? Obviously I'm not showing anything that I can be proud of, confident even, for a viewer prospective, all I can do is appreciate what others can do. Right now I feel too basic and not afraid to say it. I guess that makes me shallow for saying that but well, I guess at this time I am but doesn't mean it won't change in future.
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I read at least 90% of it, and if people don't read it I highly suggest they do. It contains a lot of shared feelings that many fail to express on their own.

To help explain what you are feeling, just know that literally every person in the world feels this. There is not one person who has walked the earth or will walk the earth who hasn't been inspired by others. Some people act on that inspiration (i.e. hedgeberg, AuroraWright, etc.) and turn it into great value. Others take that inspiration and bury it, letting it ferment into envy.

About the lack of interest, I feel ya. I don't know how old you are, but assuming you are in your teens (12-18), it is best to learn it now. Even if you hate it, force yourself to get through it. If nothing else, let money be an inspiration.
 
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Inspiration is a huge key in my life. My issue lies in my lack of motivation. Maybe I'm scared, maybe I'm lazy... Or maybe...? Maybe I just don't like unknowns. It's amazing the amount of time some people will pour into what seems to be a complex puzzle, but really is something greater. I don't have any truly unique skills. I honestly resent myself for not putting in the effort to do something with my technological skills, though.
 
Talentless 30+ year old here. The trick is acceptance. Know your limits. There is nothing wrong with having no skills. Those people who are capable of doing things are above-average, and the videos that get the most views make it to the top and it leads to a sort of survivorship-bias situation. You only think that you are surrounded by amazing people because of how popularity works on the internet. Comparing the entire population of the USA, there are a lot more average people than there are of the gifted. For every person you see making homebrew here, there are 10,000 leachers.

I'm like you and like a lot of things, and I've wasted years of hard work and suffering trying to become one of those amazing people. Once I ended up alongside them, I found myself horribly outclassed and couldn't keep up. As soon as I gave up and pursued a path that didn't require me to be a "somebody," I became significantly happier.

My advice to you is to just accept being average and to aim for an occupation that has a pension. Some trades, the military, state or federal government, etc. have relatively easy occupations where you can work for 20 years and just sit back and collect a pension afterwards. Sure, the pay isn't that great, but remember that we are average people. There is nothing wrong with making 40-60K a year. I'm halfway done getting to my pension, and after that I just plan on being a consumer of games, media, technology, and all the other cool things.

Of course, if you have some kind of talent or are extremely intelligent, you could make all the money I make in my entire 20 years of employment in a fraction of the time, but since we aren't those people, we can relax and just coast through life.
 
Thank you, inspiration was the word I should have used rather than "Lacking interest" Had i known that sooner, I would have said just that. I been thinking too hard about this post in general so my quality of vocabulary degraded the more time I spent on doing this and how my interest diminished over time between actually finishing the post. (In short, if I take too long to complete, I lose focus and get lazy)

Basically I just described what obviously i was saying about myself already, but that is what I come to know. Anyway I just kinda feel bad that this is what I learned about myself watching a video that wasn't really relevant to trying to make me feel bad but rather just share a discovery. The thing is I feel bad, why? Cause there is amazing people out there able to do some amazing things including see things in ways others can't and feel a sense of leadership while doing it, like like it's natural, almost as if is omnipotent.

Now I don't want to be anything omnipotent but I mean come on, maybe I'm just a bit sad that some game devs set the bar of challenge so high that only the very few capable of succeeding, makes me look silly. I don't have a problem with challenges, but it's a very controversial subject that does psychological things to some people who aren't mentally prepared, and that's the lesson to learn. You have to get the right state of mind (which I lack) to do almost everything you normally do in everyday life so stuff like challenge isn't phasing you when you fail making you look bad or think negative in yourself. Being able to do things and feeling good about it is about determination. (Something people who play undertale may understand after beating it... or any other challenging game)
 
Interesting, I tried to read all of it, but is hard to read and comprehend every exact thing at the same time. My talent is...
Never had a girlfriend, never kissed a girl.
(HOPE I am on topic) I did discover some glitches in Ocarina Of Time, and recorded some with my friend, but I deleted them, and one of them were a ONE TIME ONLY. :'( Well, my talent is games... And anime theorizing, and probably other I forgot.
 
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Is that supposed to be something like pro? (I prefer to have girls as friends, I don't feel mature enough).
 
@Darkyose I was talking about skills or something that interest you that you are proud of. For example, speedrunning a game, or drawing people or anime characters art in general, how to build a computer or car, making a software of some kind.

Does not having a girlfriend interest you? Or is it just something you dislike?
 
I just can't trust girls... What interests me is gaming glitches, gaming Easter eggs, gaming info(things that Did You Know Gaming? Usually covers) Anime Scenes, Music, Electronic and Remixes, Making portable Home consoles [Example: Portable Wii] And other things.
 
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I know that there are some religious-type people who wear it as a badge of honor when they are able to "resist the temptations" of the allure of women. The ability to withstand sexual urges is quite a feat when you don't cheat by watching porn or something. They also look down on your average joe who goes around having pre-marital sex with everything that moves. They are basically animals, in their eyes.

The talent in this case is above average self-restraint.
 
Reading the post helps make more relevant post. But you said the reason you didn't read much is cause you don't understand. How bout explaining what you don't understand?
 
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I feel you, Looking at it, without any knowledge, looks like they created the equivalent to a universe.

But most of those people, are usually like "Hey this is a stupid Idea, but what if."

I'd like to say I was in your spot, But I wouldn't call it a 'spot' per say, Just like, Idk, a place where you are at(I guess that is a spot). but like, I Find Portablizing Consoles(Like a portable wii) amazing, and some stuff is just so jaw dropping, and so amazing like "how could I possibly ever do this?" and I might not get there, But it's a fun journey.

I want to say more, but it's bedtime, so I'll Say more later.
 

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