So sup. 17-turning 18 on the 30th-year old here. i guess my mind finally succumbed to the average teen depression. I feel like shit, and i dont know why.
I kinda fucked up my education due to extreme laziness in school.
I've attended summer school through all 4 years of high school, and now that im done and about to start college, its a hassle for me to get myself set into the community college i was accepted to. Not to mention recently my high school sent me a "Welcome Back" letter, thats supposed to signify ill be attending them again in September, which I am severely hoping is a mistake, as i wont know for sure until tomorrow.
I was sleeping out of the house from since monday. Summer school ended on tuesday, and tuesday night i went to a friend's house. From then i continuously moved from friends' house to friends' house to sleep as i didnt want to sleep at home.
Thursday during the day i had to pack up all of my nice things, including my ps3 and 25" monitor, so that my room can get painted. Because of that, it is now sunday and all of the things in the room are now piled on the bed, and tonight also happens to be the night im stuck sleeping at home. So i have no bed, and no room. I'm currently in the kitchen on my laptop feeling depressed to shit.
At some point between now and either passing out or 6 am, i need to get up and prepare my mom's clothes for work for her, so she doesnt have to do it.
I found myself thinking that life was full of shit, and the simplest way to not have to deal with any of it would be to be dead. But i dont wanna kill myself. So yea.
Obviously almost everything i stated here was my fault, and obviously im dealing with it. I just wanted to vent it out some so i can feel better in some way. I'm not giving up/running away. I'm not gonna kill myself, thats just plain retarded. This just happens to be another one of many mental obstacles i have to overcome and this is how im attempting to start doing so
EDIT: I DO want comments. . . would make me feel better.
I kinda fucked up my education due to extreme laziness in school.
I've attended summer school through all 4 years of high school, and now that im done and about to start college, its a hassle for me to get myself set into the community college i was accepted to. Not to mention recently my high school sent me a "Welcome Back" letter, thats supposed to signify ill be attending them again in September, which I am severely hoping is a mistake, as i wont know for sure until tomorrow.
I was sleeping out of the house from since monday. Summer school ended on tuesday, and tuesday night i went to a friend's house. From then i continuously moved from friends' house to friends' house to sleep as i didnt want to sleep at home.
Thursday during the day i had to pack up all of my nice things, including my ps3 and 25" monitor, so that my room can get painted. Because of that, it is now sunday and all of the things in the room are now piled on the bed, and tonight also happens to be the night im stuck sleeping at home. So i have no bed, and no room. I'm currently in the kitchen on my laptop feeling depressed to shit.
At some point between now and either passing out or 6 am, i need to get up and prepare my mom's clothes for work for her, so she doesnt have to do it.
I found myself thinking that life was full of shit, and the simplest way to not have to deal with any of it would be to be dead. But i dont wanna kill myself. So yea.
Obviously almost everything i stated here was my fault, and obviously im dealing with it. I just wanted to vent it out some so i can feel better in some way. I'm not giving up/running away. I'm not gonna kill myself, thats just plain retarded. This just happens to be another one of many mental obstacles i have to overcome and this is how im attempting to start doing so
EDIT: I DO want comments. . . would make me feel better.