Starts from yesterday, yesterday plenty of swell things happened. Got the PS3, started some uncharted, got skyward sword (started it to), had a decent day at work, finished avatar the last airbender, played some halo, and got the book I was waiting on. All an all a pretty awesome day the only downside being that my work pants ripped, which didn't matter because I had a back up set. From falling asleep after such a nice day I wake up to my mother yelling for me and my sister bursting into my room waking me up. (around 10 AM)
Leaving my room I see my father on the ground eyes staring up at the ceiling, with my mother pumping over his chest in desperation to revive him. Pretty shocking way to wake up. Anyway from there I got dressed and wandered the house a bit not really being able to do anything. Soon the ambulance was at my home and spent I think an hour and a half trying to bring him back from the dead. I got news of the failure from my sister as meds were leaving. She simply popped into my room which I hid away in and did the throat cutting motion.
I remained in my room for a good while before texting one of my friends the news. I don't really know why I texted them first, or why I even gave them the news. I just did. It was then me and him started playing halo with a large silence at first, it only stuck around for a match and a half before I started warming up and getting out of the funk. Making small jokes, playing the game with decent focus, and even talking about my father a bit. After a few matches I left my room finding more people in my home, some family, some funeral service guys.
It was more depressing then because the door to the room my father's body was in was fully opened with him simply laying there. Soon taken away by the funeral people who left the door open to show where he was. It was pretty unsettling, so I simply went back to halo which around this point my friend's wife had joined in. I don't remember well enough if it was then that they offered to buy me food, saying that I need to eat along with my sister and mother. My sister popped into the room around this time which is when I asked her what kind she wanted. Was given the no for the moment because it wasn't the right time, didn't argue she was right.
Anyway the day went on with me and my friend playing halo. People came by most of them staying and still here, the ones that left didn't do so because they wanted to they had to. So with this number of people an none of my family having eaten at this point the food thing was brought up once more. Coming through this time, in the form of 3 pizzas. That is when things started to calm down to a scary extent, since I saw the body I had a cold empty feeling from the heart to the tummy. With things having calmed down it just made it all the more noticeable. What else to do? Play halo!
An that's how it went from halo, checking on family, talking with friends about it. Over the time I got various thoughts in my head which are listed in the spoiler.
So yeah started wondering what the hell I'm suppose to do. Thinking I needed to do something, though I could do nothing. Was rather odd. That faded though turning into two of movies with the halo friend (the producers & super troopers). Now as we play castle crashers I post this, not really use to doing a blog but I figure it will save explaining later.
Also if you want to play castle crashers with us just ask =o
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Now on top of things my half brother has arrived here. He has a bad habit of abusing women and drugs. SO now I'm just all kinds of worried with my base ball bat at the ready if something terrible happens.
Leaving my room I see my father on the ground eyes staring up at the ceiling, with my mother pumping over his chest in desperation to revive him. Pretty shocking way to wake up. Anyway from there I got dressed and wandered the house a bit not really being able to do anything. Soon the ambulance was at my home and spent I think an hour and a half trying to bring him back from the dead. I got news of the failure from my sister as meds were leaving. She simply popped into my room which I hid away in and did the throat cutting motion.
I remained in my room for a good while before texting one of my friends the news. I don't really know why I texted them first, or why I even gave them the news. I just did. It was then me and him started playing halo with a large silence at first, it only stuck around for a match and a half before I started warming up and getting out of the funk. Making small jokes, playing the game with decent focus, and even talking about my father a bit. After a few matches I left my room finding more people in my home, some family, some funeral service guys.
It was more depressing then because the door to the room my father's body was in was fully opened with him simply laying there. Soon taken away by the funeral people who left the door open to show where he was. It was pretty unsettling, so I simply went back to halo which around this point my friend's wife had joined in. I don't remember well enough if it was then that they offered to buy me food, saying that I need to eat along with my sister and mother. My sister popped into the room around this time which is when I asked her what kind she wanted. Was given the no for the moment because it wasn't the right time, didn't argue she was right.
Anyway the day went on with me and my friend playing halo. People came by most of them staying and still here, the ones that left didn't do so because they wanted to they had to. So with this number of people an none of my family having eaten at this point the food thing was brought up once more. Coming through this time, in the form of 3 pizzas. That is when things started to calm down to a scary extent, since I saw the body I had a cold empty feeling from the heart to the tummy. With things having calmed down it just made it all the more noticeable. What else to do? Play halo!
An that's how it went from halo, checking on family, talking with friends about it. Over the time I got various thoughts in my head which are listed in the spoiler.
1. why the hell am I playing halo?
2. why does everyone say sorry
3. Will the PS3 ever see use now?
4. if you're male and orgasm leads to apple sauce. Will it hurt?
5. the hell do I do?
2. why does everyone say sorry
3. Will the PS3 ever see use now?
4. if you're male and orgasm leads to apple sauce. Will it hurt?
5. the hell do I do?
So yeah started wondering what the hell I'm suppose to do. Thinking I needed to do something, though I could do nothing. Was rather odd. That faded though turning into two of movies with the halo friend (the producers & super troopers). Now as we play castle crashers I post this, not really use to doing a blog but I figure it will save explaining later.
Also if you want to play castle crashers with us just ask =o
-edit-
Now on top of things my half brother has arrived here. He has a bad habit of abusing women and drugs. SO now I'm just all kinds of worried with my base ball bat at the ready if something terrible happens.
