Operation Emotional Olympics

Im going to break up with my girlfriend in a little over an hour.

It's getting hard to hold a long term relationship with a girl who is just getting into college... And I'm getting ready to graduate in the spring. There's a large maturity gap and it's getting harder to deal with.

Also being long distance (6 hours during the school year) is really getting tiring.

I have been feeling very distant from her lately, even though we text and call each other daily. I feel like we are growing apart whether we want to or not... And wether she is wiling to admit it.

I feel like we might have gone too far sexually. We haven't done anything, really, but I know we are both very sexually charged. And...

There is no way I'm going to propose or anything any time soon. She's starting college and frankly I'm not ready for a long term relationship anyways.

Notice how none of this is personal? That makes this even harder. I drove home this weekend and she came an hour north for home to see me. I feel terrible but there is no way I was gonna tell her this over the phone though... The only thing I have personally against her is that she worries too much even when nothing is wrong and it infuriates me. Sometimes she doesnt understand my humor all the time and gets worried that I'm serious and can't understand my sarcasm... Or sometimes when I explain thing she's not always with me and it makes me mad because I don't know how she doesn't understand... But those things are my fault.

I'll report back later after the storm hits...
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Sometimes you're meant to fall in love together but it doesn't mean you're meant to be together...
Just food for thought.
 
Eh gosh it hurt to cause her so much pain when she didnt really do anything... Im relatively ok. It just kinda hurts when I think about what I've done.
 
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