Ok so I think I found the way to cure my depression; i'll watch anime so I can get distracted and i'll insult myself when making mistakes so I become smart. That way my depression will be healed, or atleast in the long run!
cut off the insult part! it's like crumpling a paper every time you make a mistake. eventually, you just lead to a pile of crumpled papers. you feel bad about it, so you crumple a paper and add to it. you get annoyed that you're still doing it, so you do it again... an infinite loop that gives you more paper crumples, while you watch anime... and lose money in the long run. hey, that's a lot of paper you're spending!!!11
just cutting out the insult part can make things better! encourage yourself to do better and let yourself watch more anime or something, if you don't insult yourself or learn something new! listen, we all make mistakes. the best way to deal with them is to grow from them. that's how everybody has been able to make amazing stuff.