I don't like my birthdays in general and it's not like I care much about it anyways, but.. I don't know.
Why do I feel so atrabilious today? sigh. D:
My mother hasn't even called me yet, usually she calls me as soon as it's midnight to wish me a nice birthday and tell me she loves me. For some reason it makes me much sadder than I expected it would make me that she hasn't called yet. My best friend has not said a word to me either.
Instead strangers start wishing me a happy birthday... it feels so wrong. I know they did not mean to hurt me or anything, yeah, they did not mean anything at all with it, so why bother?
I may sound way more depressed than I actually am, I am pretty much looking forward to later, when Phil will come over and we'll watch my new Blu-Rays (WALL-E~!! <3333) together with bfsan who's currently taking our son to his parents (bfsan's parents). So I can even drink a little tonight, if I feel like it, I'm not been that excited about drinking lately.. we'll see about that.
And I'll make fried chinese noodles with veggies, yum. :3
Sigh, I'll do some cleaning to get my mind off of the depressing thoughts!
Hahaha, I just received a mail from my dad which was rather amusing, so suddenly I feel much better. XD (yes, it's that easy to get me in a good mood again.) Anyways, I'll still do the cleaning, hehe. XD
Oh but I am very sad that the skirt I wanted to buy (http://www.play.com/Clothing/T-Shirts/4-/5857730/-/Product.html) is no longer available in my size! ;______________________;
Why do I feel so atrabilious today? sigh. D:
My mother hasn't even called me yet, usually she calls me as soon as it's midnight to wish me a nice birthday and tell me she loves me. For some reason it makes me much sadder than I expected it would make me that she hasn't called yet. My best friend has not said a word to me either.
Instead strangers start wishing me a happy birthday... it feels so wrong. I know they did not mean to hurt me or anything, yeah, they did not mean anything at all with it, so why bother?
I may sound way more depressed than I actually am, I am pretty much looking forward to later, when Phil will come over and we'll watch my new Blu-Rays (WALL-E~!! <3333) together with bfsan who's currently taking our son to his parents (bfsan's parents). So I can even drink a little tonight, if I feel like it, I'm not been that excited about drinking lately.. we'll see about that.
And I'll make fried chinese noodles with veggies, yum. :3
Sigh, I'll do some cleaning to get my mind off of the depressing thoughts!
Hahaha, I just received a mail from my dad which was rather amusing, so suddenly I feel much better. XD (yes, it's that easy to get me in a good mood again.) Anyways, I'll still do the cleaning, hehe. XD
Oh but I am very sad that the skirt I wanted to buy (http://www.play.com/Clothing/T-Shirts/4-/5857730/-/Product.html) is no longer available in my size! ;______________________;