I need to get this off my chest.
A long story short, this guy I fell in love with broke off all the contact with me about 3 months ago. I'm pretty sure I was blocked on Skype at first, but it was only a few days ago that he actually deleted me off his Skype. I know it's not the best idea to fall for someone over the internet, but he was super nice all the time, and treated me a lot better than any other guy I've ever known. I've known him for a bit over 3 years, first as a fan of his LPs on YouTube, and about a year and a half ago he asked me to get Skype so I could possibly do commentary with him. We ended up falling in love, but then he suddenly dissappears, and I haven't heard a word from him since. I've tried messaging him on YouTube, and asked a common contact on Skype if he knows what's happened to him, and he told me he's online, while for me he appeared as offline. He has never said anything mean to me, in fact his last words were "it's okay to need someone, and I'm glad you came to me" (I was sick and had seen a nighmare that had gotten me upset).
A part of me can't let go of him, and wants to believe that there's some reason he can't talk to me now, but will eventually come back. Another part of me is telling me he's been lying to me the whole time, that he wanted to break me. And there's some parts in between those two too.
I've done all I can to get him to talk to me, to tell me why he would do this to me. But I just get ignored. Does anyone have any tips to how to get over him? He was my first love so I don't know what to do. Or should I keep waiting for him to come back? All I know is that he's killing me by doing this.
A long story short, this guy I fell in love with broke off all the contact with me about 3 months ago. I'm pretty sure I was blocked on Skype at first, but it was only a few days ago that he actually deleted me off his Skype. I know it's not the best idea to fall for someone over the internet, but he was super nice all the time, and treated me a lot better than any other guy I've ever known. I've known him for a bit over 3 years, first as a fan of his LPs on YouTube, and about a year and a half ago he asked me to get Skype so I could possibly do commentary with him. We ended up falling in love, but then he suddenly dissappears, and I haven't heard a word from him since. I've tried messaging him on YouTube, and asked a common contact on Skype if he knows what's happened to him, and he told me he's online, while for me he appeared as offline. He has never said anything mean to me, in fact his last words were "it's okay to need someone, and I'm glad you came to me" (I was sick and had seen a nighmare that had gotten me upset).
A part of me can't let go of him, and wants to believe that there's some reason he can't talk to me now, but will eventually come back. Another part of me is telling me he's been lying to me the whole time, that he wanted to break me. And there's some parts in between those two too.
I've done all I can to get him to talk to me, to tell me why he would do this to me. But I just get ignored. Does anyone have any tips to how to get over him? He was my first love so I don't know what to do. Or should I keep waiting for him to come back? All I know is that he's killing me by doing this.