Well as the title says ignorance only goes so far. Being ignorant to understand those around you. Being ignorant of what goes around and occurs. etc...
I felt I should blog to let off some steam from my life. Its just my life is so full of complications and depression I don't know anything to help motivate me to get back to my life. For starters my mother hasn't been her best for years. She needs knee surgery to get replacement caps and when things finally looked up we found out she could die on the table. She has a heart condition and she wont wake up if they put her to sleep....
My life has always been like this though and I just dont know how to handle it. I grew up the right way but I went through things I cant forget in my childhood............ I mean I grew up with the good values of knowing what you have and being grateful for what you already have. To also have respect, responsibility and all that.
However I dont have any other way to say it. Im fucked up... I still dont forgive myself for my horrible actions last year... When my life keeps going down hill I keep clinging onto stupid games and electronics. The more fucked up the more I store up. I just wish I could change but now with the news of my mom and my life going nowhere as it is I am more than ever close to the edge of losing it.
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I felt I should blog to let off some steam from my life. Its just my life is so full of complications and depression I don't know anything to help motivate me to get back to my life. For starters my mother hasn't been her best for years. She needs knee surgery to get replacement caps and when things finally looked up we found out she could die on the table. She has a heart condition and she wont wake up if they put her to sleep....
My life has always been like this though and I just dont know how to handle it. I grew up the right way but I went through things I cant forget in my childhood............ I mean I grew up with the good values of knowing what you have and being grateful for what you already have. To also have respect, responsibility and all that.
However I dont have any other way to say it. Im fucked up... I still dont forgive myself for my horrible actions last year... When my life keeps going down hill I keep clinging onto stupid games and electronics. The more fucked up the more I store up. I just wish I could change but now with the news of my mom and my life going nowhere as it is I am more than ever close to the edge of losing it.
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