Well,
All my friends are either felons, married, or "too cool" to chill anymore. I find myself drowning in a self for-filling circle of isolation and depression. I tried to hit up my local Waffle House this morning around 1am to boost my self esteem with an All Star Breakfast only to find one of my ex-fiancee's walking in as I randomly ran into another old friend. I turned around and walked away, driving across to another town where I could go to another Waffle House and complete my mission without being reminded of any heartbreak. So while I waited to be served I pulled out my 3DS and started to play Pokemon Black. One of the waitstaff approaches me and asks what I'm playing and so I confess, Pokemon! He didn't seem thrown off and we started to have a small discussion about how lame it was that Black and White 2 were gonna come out for the regular DS. I sorta slipped and threw it out, maybe we're too old to be playing Pokemon when I told him I remembered back in the day when I used to play blue/red via link cables. Then he reveled he was too young to remember that, and asked me how old I was. I embarrassingly replied, 28, and his jaw dropped. He said he thought I wasn't much older than 18 and actually thought it was weird that I was out and about so late at night. I played it off, but I sort of died a little inside. Realizing I was all alone, almost 30, at waffle house on a Friday night. So we wrapped up the small talk and I put away my nintendo. After finishing up I returned home. Realizing that I was starting to really get down, I turned on my 3ds and started to play some music. I was put in my place as random chose, Local H - Bound for the Floor. Immediately tears formed while I sang along, then to my surprise my night got better. A local police officer pulled up beside me and made eye contact. I had no reason to be worried, except that where I live the cops carry cautious courses of action which result in jail for anyone out after 2am. In retrospect it was a really bad idea to turn my radio to max and continue singing, "and you just don't get it, keep it copasetic...", but he kinda just gave me a calming stare and continued on past me. My heart hadn't skipped a beat. Now I'm sitting down at the computer wondering if life is even real. Am I invisible? Could I possibly just be in some sort of dream? I haven't the imagination to come up with half of the things that have occurred recently. Anyways, I just needed to share this feeling that the world has sorta just turned and left me here. This can't be something unique, other people must feel this way too?
All my friends are either felons, married, or "too cool" to chill anymore. I find myself drowning in a self for-filling circle of isolation and depression. I tried to hit up my local Waffle House this morning around 1am to boost my self esteem with an All Star Breakfast only to find one of my ex-fiancee's walking in as I randomly ran into another old friend. I turned around and walked away, driving across to another town where I could go to another Waffle House and complete my mission without being reminded of any heartbreak. So while I waited to be served I pulled out my 3DS and started to play Pokemon Black. One of the waitstaff approaches me and asks what I'm playing and so I confess, Pokemon! He didn't seem thrown off and we started to have a small discussion about how lame it was that Black and White 2 were gonna come out for the regular DS. I sorta slipped and threw it out, maybe we're too old to be playing Pokemon when I told him I remembered back in the day when I used to play blue/red via link cables. Then he reveled he was too young to remember that, and asked me how old I was. I embarrassingly replied, 28, and his jaw dropped. He said he thought I wasn't much older than 18 and actually thought it was weird that I was out and about so late at night. I played it off, but I sort of died a little inside. Realizing I was all alone, almost 30, at waffle house on a Friday night. So we wrapped up the small talk and I put away my nintendo. After finishing up I returned home. Realizing that I was starting to really get down, I turned on my 3ds and started to play some music. I was put in my place as random chose, Local H - Bound for the Floor. Immediately tears formed while I sang along, then to my surprise my night got better. A local police officer pulled up beside me and made eye contact. I had no reason to be worried, except that where I live the cops carry cautious courses of action which result in jail for anyone out after 2am. In retrospect it was a really bad idea to turn my radio to max and continue singing, "and you just don't get it, keep it copasetic...", but he kinda just gave me a calming stare and continued on past me. My heart hadn't skipped a beat. Now I'm sitting down at the computer wondering if life is even real. Am I invisible? Could I possibly just be in some sort of dream? I haven't the imagination to come up with half of the things that have occurred recently. Anyways, I just needed to share this feeling that the world has sorta just turned and left me here. This can't be something unique, other people must feel this way too?
