College So Far... (Another update)

Wow, I almost forgot that I had this blog. Well it's close to the end of the 2nd semester here (ends in 20 days). Back in winter break, it was decided that the family would move out of state, and I would have to stop my education to help the family settle else where (like getting a job). The whole 2nd semester I have slacked off a bit because I know that I am going to be working for a full year and wait for my residency in the other state. I see less of my friends from my first semester, but the ones that I do keep in touch are people that I want to grow up with and watch them grow to. I've been getting a little bit closer with my distant niece and my 3rd cousin (both same year as me) since the beginning of the 2nd semester. I'm gonna miss those dumbasses. Every night before I go to sleep, I always imagine how my "final" departure is going to be like. They already know that I'm out of state bound, and they know that I have only a limited amount of time to be with them. Moving out of state doesn't worry me, I could careless about it. It's for family (well, my immediate family). The only thing that makes me want to stay is the bond that I have with my cousin and niece. I don't want to leave them, I still want to watch them grow along with me. But, I guess I only have 20 days left of school to be stupid with them. 20 days, huh?? It's gonna fly by quick. I'm gonna have to take as much as pictures to make memories as I can before I head out. I'm not going to come back soon (maybe in 10 years). But, it's not like we're going to not keep in touch. What worries me is that they'll be living their own lives here, and I'll be living my own life else where. We're eventually going to start forgetting to text/call/contact each other, and when we do meet up again (after a LONG period of time), will it be the same?? By then, we'll probably have a family of our own and stuff. Thinking about this shit opened my eyes to how much time I have left with my friends before I'm gone. It's like I have an illness and only have a certain amount of days left to live, and I have to live it with the people that matters to me the most. And I only have 20 days of school left... fuck...