I wrote that it is almost divine: you don't have to do it.
It comes naturally when you are ready. There are many lifetimes available to understand it.
You are still human, too human.
Meister Eckhart said, " To be nothing, to have nothing, to want nothing." When you are like that, you will understand.
The most important is to let go of the resentment. You don't have to build back the connection with the person that hurt you, but any resentment you hold is damaging only you further.
Have seen a comment below some music from the Mother series on YouTube.
Mother 1 (Earthbound Zero)→ Love
Mother 2 (Earthbound) → Friendship
Mother 3 → Learning to lose both
Very accurate.
First I had to learn to lose the possibility have love in life… then the same for friendship.
I accepted it, but I'll certainly not forgive those who did it to me.
That's not what I mean by acceptance. Accepting the past and inevitable situations that we cannot modify. You have not lost the possibility of love or friendship: you have convinced yourself of that. Try. Act. A first step with no expectations: and everything will come of itself. But you must trust ...... in me, in you, in man, in the whole order.
You may remember that I, too, was bullied, mocked, persecuted, assaulted (I almost lost an eye) for several years in school.
I remember everything and yet it has no hold on me: because I have learned to live immersed in the present, both in joy and pain. If a memory emerges, it feels like a distant and unreal dream.
you have convinced yourself of that
A conscious decision after all the losses to not try again.
SDA having repeatedly mentioned, that they are frustrated because of some ban on the internet, reminds me of my own trauma.
We can't change the past, we can use the past experiences as decision guidance for the future. The internet can thankfully not hurt me.
GBAtemp members give friendliness/
appreciation, so I use the forum as a caricature, a pale imitation of real life fulfillment. In reality I’m a vehicle for cynicism and bitterness.
That is the kind of friendship I always got in return:
Personal recollection. Now that I am back in my small town, I often meet some of my past persecutors. They greet me, invite me to the bar, ask me how I am. They treat me as a whole different person. Do not even give any weight to what they did. Because they are not the same, and neither am I. And tomorrow we will be further different, the past even more distant.
Apart from friendship, have you suffered from love? Then why do you give it up? And don't bring up physical appearance, the last thing a woman looks at. Sweetness, sensitivity, sympathy, sincerity, directness, intelligence: that's what they look at. I'm sure these are all your qualities, even if you underestimate yourself.
I admit I don't understand the point of that laugh. Do you feel that you do not have these characteristics? I do not suppose that you have them; I know for a fact that you do. From your numerous interventions toward me and others. We are often not the best judges of ourselves but the worst tormentors.
Loss is part of life.
If you don't loose yourself, you'll be alright.
If someone likes you, you should give them a chance even if you have issues with yourself.
That is called "respecting" others
(A lesson I still haven't quite figured out, but will. eventually)
There are enough bitter ppl on earth.
One less would be nice.
Hey, about switch. If I want to change micro CD card to bigger size, Do I need to do something ? or I can just copy the content of old SD card into new once ?
It comes naturally when you are ready. There are many lifetimes available to understand it.
You are still human, too human.
Meister Eckhart said, " To be nothing, to have nothing, to want nothing." When you are like that, you will understand.